Hope you all have been doing well. So recently I was put on a low dose antidepressant and it’s actually been working pretty well for me. A few months back I finally reached out to my best friend and things are great with us again. We had a bit of a falling out but I feel we are stronger than ever now. What happened between us helped me realize that I needed help. I lost one of the most important people in my life over nothing. And that bothered me for the entire time we weren’t speaking. It tormented me, but now I have taken the right steps to change that in me. Today I will be talking to a psychiatrist and will be going as long as they feel I should see them. I need to fix myself if not for me for the people I love. I know they want to see the best version of me and they deserve that. I hate that it took what happened to make me see this, but it worked. Now it falls on me to make sure it never happens again.
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korbendallas:
I know i’ll make mistakes @gadget , I mostly meant making that same mistake twice. I have seen the errors of my ways and now I have to react to my thoughts and actions before I react to a situation. I was always a victim in my head, now I realize that I can be quite the dramatic asshole as well. Lol.
gadget:
I know what you mean.It can be tricky because your ego has to take a backseat, while putting your emotional response on mute. Doing so should allow you to think logically while listening to the other person. This will create greater understanding and perspective. After that you can remove the mute from your emotional response and have honest dialogue. That allows things to be much less dramatic. It's really important to stay calm and ask questions to gain greater clarity. It's kinda like a poker face. Don't reveal your true emotions until you're sure they're justified. I find doing this allows me to be less anxious and emotional because instead of 'what if's' and assumptions, I KNOW. It's the only way to not have that shit eat at you. I'm the absolute worst with that. Guilt will be the death of me. It's a big step man. I'm proud of you.