Subject: It has been less that a day... and I miss The Brides.
Date: 11/13/05 12:49:00 PM PM
Mood: contemplative
Music: Love Will Tear Us Apart
I had to call London today to give him his homework... and I realized with a sudden pang that I miss his crazy ass.
There have been times lately I am convinced this is the time to do everything and get nothing in order to pay for all the time I had everything and did nothing... I dont know if that makes much sense, but that really is how things seem to be playing out. We have been on the road since the very end of September... Six weeks of day and night debauchery... not really... more like six weeks of shoddy green rooms, endless networking, and relentless hype... I am staring at the pile of demo CD's and receipts lumped on the floor wondering how I will find the focus to divide all that crap up, categorize it, type it all in. success often means the compromising what was your moral center, trading morality and decency for a paycheck that you always intend on using to do something "good" with, but it never works out that way. Instead, you end up with a whole bunch of stuff that you don't really want and certainly don't need and wonder what happened to all the money that seemed so important long ago. I think I learned on this tour with The Brides, watched and learned. We all had a lot of lessons to teach each other, and I watched our human drama play out with the roller coaster emotions that had even me laughing and tearing up... I guess there will be more later, but there is bathing to be done... scrape off the weeks of stuff and prepare for Europe... and try to process some of those lessons of love with the music ringing in my ears...
Date: 11/13/05 12:49:00 PM PM
Mood: contemplative
Music: Love Will Tear Us Apart
I had to call London today to give him his homework... and I realized with a sudden pang that I miss his crazy ass.
There have been times lately I am convinced this is the time to do everything and get nothing in order to pay for all the time I had everything and did nothing... I dont know if that makes much sense, but that really is how things seem to be playing out. We have been on the road since the very end of September... Six weeks of day and night debauchery... not really... more like six weeks of shoddy green rooms, endless networking, and relentless hype... I am staring at the pile of demo CD's and receipts lumped on the floor wondering how I will find the focus to divide all that crap up, categorize it, type it all in. success often means the compromising what was your moral center, trading morality and decency for a paycheck that you always intend on using to do something "good" with, but it never works out that way. Instead, you end up with a whole bunch of stuff that you don't really want and certainly don't need and wonder what happened to all the money that seemed so important long ago. I think I learned on this tour with The Brides, watched and learned. We all had a lot of lessons to teach each other, and I watched our human drama play out with the roller coaster emotions that had even me laughing and tearing up... I guess there will be more later, but there is bathing to be done... scrape off the weeks of stuff and prepare for Europe... and try to process some of those lessons of love with the music ringing in my ears...