Woah! A new post? But Artsy NEVER posts in her blog!!! That's why people are still welcoming Artsy back from September of 2008!!
LOL Anyways! Thanks for the welcome back comments, now I really am back, I swear! Now As some of you may know, I had lost a a lot of weight between the time I became a Hopeful in May 2007 and may last mini-set in May 2008... Unfortunately I have gained some of that weight back!
*Hissing and booing from the crowd ensues and rotten tomatoes are thrown*
I KNOW, I KNOW! But you gotta hear me out, guys!
I was sick then. Very fuckin' sick. Yeah I looked hot as FUCK in my pictures and yeah I had a SHIT TON of confidence, but my BMI was 17.5 and I was eating under 500 calories a day on most days. && I NEVER ate more than 800 in one day, I just couldn't let myself. To me in my Anorexic state of mind (eg. me in early 2008), anything over 500 calories in one day was a complete binge and I was a horrible, fat BITCH for having that 'high' of an intake! Do you see what I mean now? I had to gain some weight.
Now that I've told you all about that, let me tell you why I still wont post new pictures-- *is hit by a rotten tomato* HEY, LET ME FINISH!! --why I still wont post new pictures, YET! *glares at tomato-throwing asshole and clears her throat* For now, my confidence is still down... way down. And though I can't let myself get all stupid and Anorexic again, I am trying to lose a little weight. I won't let my BMI slip under 18.5 because if it does, my doctors could think that I'm headed down the wrong path (again) and section 12 me (meaning put me in an inpatient psychiatric facility without me being able to do a damn thing about it)... However, since I plan on not only dieting, but also working out, I should be able to stay about 111 lbs (which would give me, at 5'5" a BMI of 18.5) easily... because as we all (should) know, muscle weighs more than fat!
So what's the actual goal you ask? Well I'll say 120 lbs because I used to balance there and I didn't really have any body image issues at that weight. (FYI: Before I turned 18 and joined SG, I gained weight from a medication I was on, that's why I was 165 when you first saw me and why I developed my eating disorder.) Anyways, I'm not as focused on weight as I am inches and sizes. I'm hoping to drop down two sizes, from a barely fitting (in that I'm-too-fat way) size 7 to a comfortable size 3. (In case the boys reading this don't know: girls sizes are by every other number and, where I shop, they are odd numbers.) Basically said I want a waist of about 25" and a hip measurement of about 35". With some hard work on diet and exercise I think it's possible to do that and still be healthy! Besides, I just got WiiFit Plus today!!
So yeah, I'm super sorry I've been inactive (because even before my account expired, I was inactive) and that there wont be new pics yet, but I have plans, my friends! Big plans that include fresh, new, and VERY improved eye candy for you... and maybe even a new SuidcideGirl!
LOVE YOU ALL!
Artsy
LOL Anyways! Thanks for the welcome back comments, now I really am back, I swear! Now As some of you may know, I had lost a a lot of weight between the time I became a Hopeful in May 2007 and may last mini-set in May 2008... Unfortunately I have gained some of that weight back!
*Hissing and booing from the crowd ensues and rotten tomatoes are thrown*
I KNOW, I KNOW! But you gotta hear me out, guys!
I was sick then. Very fuckin' sick. Yeah I looked hot as FUCK in my pictures and yeah I had a SHIT TON of confidence, but my BMI was 17.5 and I was eating under 500 calories a day on most days. && I NEVER ate more than 800 in one day, I just couldn't let myself. To me in my Anorexic state of mind (eg. me in early 2008), anything over 500 calories in one day was a complete binge and I was a horrible, fat BITCH for having that 'high' of an intake! Do you see what I mean now? I had to gain some weight.
Now that I've told you all about that, let me tell you why I still wont post new pictures-- *is hit by a rotten tomato* HEY, LET ME FINISH!! --why I still wont post new pictures, YET! *glares at tomato-throwing asshole and clears her throat* For now, my confidence is still down... way down. And though I can't let myself get all stupid and Anorexic again, I am trying to lose a little weight. I won't let my BMI slip under 18.5 because if it does, my doctors could think that I'm headed down the wrong path (again) and section 12 me (meaning put me in an inpatient psychiatric facility without me being able to do a damn thing about it)... However, since I plan on not only dieting, but also working out, I should be able to stay about 111 lbs (which would give me, at 5'5" a BMI of 18.5) easily... because as we all (should) know, muscle weighs more than fat!
So what's the actual goal you ask? Well I'll say 120 lbs because I used to balance there and I didn't really have any body image issues at that weight. (FYI: Before I turned 18 and joined SG, I gained weight from a medication I was on, that's why I was 165 when you first saw me and why I developed my eating disorder.) Anyways, I'm not as focused on weight as I am inches and sizes. I'm hoping to drop down two sizes, from a barely fitting (in that I'm-too-fat way) size 7 to a comfortable size 3. (In case the boys reading this don't know: girls sizes are by every other number and, where I shop, they are odd numbers.) Basically said I want a waist of about 25" and a hip measurement of about 35". With some hard work on diet and exercise I think it's possible to do that and still be healthy! Besides, I just got WiiFit Plus today!!
So yeah, I'm super sorry I've been inactive (because even before my account expired, I was inactive) and that there wont be new pics yet, but I have plans, my friends! Big plans that include fresh, new, and VERY improved eye candy for you... and maybe even a new SuidcideGirl!
LOVE YOU ALL!
Artsy
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but good luck with your goals and such =]
just be happy and healthy, thats all that matters!