kolic

Eh. I had one of those nights last night. Friend took me out drinking after we got nicely stoned. We got decently fucked up (hell, woke up stoned, hated being at work, made me paranoid), but we had to deal with drama with the "normal" people. There were some girls there who were drunk and horny. And one ended up making out with my drinking buddy. He got threatened by her friends about that. He did it anyway. They basically treated him like a rapist. I won't defend his actions and he's annoyed with me as a result. Both sides were in the wrong. He shouldn't have let her make out with him, they shouldn't have been the angry cunts they were. I didn't exactly get to calmly sit them down and tell them that I was his ride home, that I wouldn't let her come with, that I knew how wrong it was, or the fact that I'd been date raped and would kill my friend if he tried anything. But at the same time, all it was was kissing, and we were probably safer guys for her to be hitting on due the above reasons. Couldn't explain to him why I sided with her friends, no matter how hard I tried, but hopefully he understands now that he's sober.

As I surveyed the situation, even in my slightly drunk/stoned off my ass state, I realized that it's bullshit like that that makes me more comfortable in fetish clubs where most people are more responsible about that shit and the rules are followed without argument or discussion and everyone knows them.

Also just reminded me of people's ugliness and why I'm so agoraphobic anymore. The idea of dealing with shit like that, ego and anger, just makes me want to stay inside.





But I'm not exactly flourishing while caged. I'm lonely, depressed, not taking good care of myself or the apartment and would kill just to feel a kind woman's arms around me and have my ear against her chest.