Oy. Buzzkill.
So...There's this hot girl who used to be a part of my Rocky cast. We flirted and stuff back then, but she was taken. I've wanted her badly since then. Well, her relationship has been breaking up and we've been fooling around a bit.
Now...My ex-fiance started dating/fucking other guys within days of us officially calling it off while we were still living together. Which is why I hate her. So the karmic twist that I would end up with a girl at the end of her relationship that'd stop short of oral or actual fucking with me because of what she said were moral reasons and my trying to still get in her pants has admittedly made me feel like a hypocrite.
Trouble is, it's not just a moral thing. I found out last night that while she's being moral with me, the other guys she's fooling around with are getting the whole she-bang. Emphasis on the bang. I honestly thought that maybe she thought more of me. And I thought more of her, being so strongly moral. No, she's just like me, an impulsive slut with morals that don't really mean anything given the right situation.
We're supposed to hook up on Thursday, but now I don't even want her, but I still do want her. What other hot girl is going to fuck me? But how can I enjoy myself when I feel that dagger pain in my chest when I think about the fact that she is actually fucking strangers but not me?
I just want to get my kitten from her now and call it off.
Honestly, I'm getting to the point where I'm okay with not hooking up or dating anyone. I'm honestly sick of the bullshit like this. Can't I get one good girl (or boy) and keep her?
So...There's this hot girl who used to be a part of my Rocky cast. We flirted and stuff back then, but she was taken. I've wanted her badly since then. Well, her relationship has been breaking up and we've been fooling around a bit.
Now...My ex-fiance started dating/fucking other guys within days of us officially calling it off while we were still living together. Which is why I hate her. So the karmic twist that I would end up with a girl at the end of her relationship that'd stop short of oral or actual fucking with me because of what she said were moral reasons and my trying to still get in her pants has admittedly made me feel like a hypocrite.
Trouble is, it's not just a moral thing. I found out last night that while she's being moral with me, the other guys she's fooling around with are getting the whole she-bang. Emphasis on the bang. I honestly thought that maybe she thought more of me. And I thought more of her, being so strongly moral. No, she's just like me, an impulsive slut with morals that don't really mean anything given the right situation.
We're supposed to hook up on Thursday, but now I don't even want her, but I still do want her. What other hot girl is going to fuck me? But how can I enjoy myself when I feel that dagger pain in my chest when I think about the fact that she is actually fucking strangers but not me?
I just want to get my kitten from her now and call it off.
Honestly, I'm getting to the point where I'm okay with not hooking up or dating anyone. I'm honestly sick of the bullshit like this. Can't I get one good girl (or boy) and keep her?