koleeta

my head hurts and I feel like this is all too hard and I can't do it anymore.

and yet I still just... do it, not in the Nike way. I continue to just go through it like I know what I'm doing. I seem to just follow all the right steps and things are "working," somewhere between bearable, depressing, and optimistic. yes, it's a triangle, not a line.

trying doesn't help. crying doesn't help. I'm too afraid to stop. What if I stopped this train all of a sudden and it derailed? There would be a big mess. How would I get the train back on the rails? Then I'd be sorry, then I know the ball would get stuck in a corner of the aforementioned triangle.

I know I'm the only one who can save me. I know I'm the only one who can fix this. I'm the only one who can make a decision. I can only count on myself. Only me, 'cause in my life there is only me.

But it just got harder.

Don't tell me life ain't easy, I already know. I know it can get worse, I know it can get better. I know, I know.

All you must hold on to
Is you
Is you
Is you

One Day all them bags goin' get in your way
I said one day all them bags goin' get in your way

So pack light