Ok so i am back online and have to vent a lil. Its been a hell of a year and mostly all happening in the past few months. The good thing that happened this year is that I finally was honest about who I am and told a few of my friends that I knew who would not freak out. I haven't told everyone cause I am still in a position that requires some discretion but that still ok cause I can pick and choose who knows the truth about me. 
Unfortantly, I am not able to be completly honest with my ex-girlfriend cause she is not very opened-minded about that kind of thing. And its ok really, I am not gonna force anyone to do or like something they dont want. Basically it comes down to this: I am bi-sexual who enjoys fetish balls and masquerades, I am part of a swinger couple and have been part of some swingers clubs, I enjoy watching and joining in, and at this time I have an arrangement with two females. I like multiple partners and orgy parties, even lost my virginity in an orgy lol. The only thing my ex does not know about me is that I am bi. I told her the rest cause before this we broke it off and I was the one that did it. And it was because I was not honest at first about me so I take some of the blame. I had to realize it doesnt matter to me what anyone thinks about me. This is who I am and if you dont like it then you dont have to stay.
So here I am just having fun and trying to live a dual life: one is a co-worker life that everyone sees at work and the other is my life I choose to enjoy and live. But then the retarded ass bullshit of rumors kicked me square in the junk
when I found out from my ex that a co-worker had been asking her questions about me!! And not your everyday rumor mill questions, personal questions. "Are you and him dating?" How long the two of you been together?" "Have the two of you had sex?" WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!? I went to my supervisor and I went OFF!!! I had to leave work early and had to miss two days cause I was SO PISSED. I made the reports I needed and was told that they were gonna look into it and see what can be done. Now heres the kicker. NOTHING HAPPENED! Not a dam thing, all they did was transfer the bitch to another department!! RAGE!!!!!! 
Now I just learned an important life lesson. Bad people get away with murder due to a technicality and good people get fired for being 2 minutes late. BULLSHIT!!!!! But thats my thoughts. Anyways, that vent is over and I say fuck my job, I am just gonna go in and be a lump and collect a pay check. Why not? It seems to work for everyone else.
Anyways, I have to admit that I am quite picky when it comes to the people I see, males, females, shemales, does not matter, I have my standards
hehe. And then my ex comes back and tells me that it doesnt matter what I told her, she still wants me. So I told her that we can try dating again and see how that goes. And now I have 2 arrangements with 2 females, my ex who I am dating atm and another who agreed to try a friends with benefits relationship. I guess things are working out so far but it looks like my ex is wanting an exclusive thing and I have to keep reminding her that we are just dating. Although I have to admit if only I could get her to open up more and try new things. But I guess that just comes with time.
So, here I am, just trying to live my life without drama or stress and seem to be doing a good job of it. I quit smoking and drinking since I had 3 blackouts since i moved here, use to live in another time and place where I did many stupid, bad things. Basically, I was not sober for about 6 years
including many substances that should have killed me but just made me crazy lol. All well, live and learn and I learned I better clean up and leave before I get myself and others killed. 
I turned my back on all my so-called friends (gang-bangers actually) and left my home to start fresh in a new town. So did not expect where I ended up at but hey it works. Got a damn good job, easiest I ever had for the amount of money I am getting paid, got actual real friends that dont care about the past or drama and will help u when needed and living on my own for the first time in a very long, bumpy time. So far so good, hope it keeps going for a very long time. I will try to keep everyone updated as time goes by, but unfortantly I am kinda slow at these kind of things hehe, Life included.
Unfortantly, I am not able to be completly honest with my ex-girlfriend cause she is not very opened-minded about that kind of thing. And its ok really, I am not gonna force anyone to do or like something they dont want. Basically it comes down to this: I am bi-sexual who enjoys fetish balls and masquerades, I am part of a swinger couple and have been part of some swingers clubs, I enjoy watching and joining in, and at this time I have an arrangement with two females. I like multiple partners and orgy parties, even lost my virginity in an orgy lol. The only thing my ex does not know about me is that I am bi. I told her the rest cause before this we broke it off and I was the one that did it. And it was because I was not honest at first about me so I take some of the blame. I had to realize it doesnt matter to me what anyone thinks about me. This is who I am and if you dont like it then you dont have to stay. So here I am just having fun and trying to live a dual life: one is a co-worker life that everyone sees at work and the other is my life I choose to enjoy and live. But then the retarded ass bullshit of rumors kicked me square in the junk
when I found out from my ex that a co-worker had been asking her questions about me!! And not your everyday rumor mill questions, personal questions. "Are you and him dating?" How long the two of you been together?" "Have the two of you had sex?" WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!? I went to my supervisor and I went OFF!!! I had to leave work early and had to miss two days cause I was SO PISSED. I made the reports I needed and was told that they were gonna look into it and see what can be done. Now heres the kicker. NOTHING HAPPENED! Not a dam thing, all they did was transfer the bitch to another department!! RAGE!!!!!! Now I just learned an important life lesson. Bad people get away with murder due to a technicality and good people get fired for being 2 minutes late. BULLSHIT!!!!! But thats my thoughts. Anyways, that vent is over and I say fuck my job, I am just gonna go in and be a lump and collect a pay check. Why not? It seems to work for everyone else.Anyways, I have to admit that I am quite picky when it comes to the people I see, males, females, shemales, does not matter, I have my standards
hehe. And then my ex comes back and tells me that it doesnt matter what I told her, she still wants me. So I told her that we can try dating again and see how that goes. And now I have 2 arrangements with 2 females, my ex who I am dating atm and another who agreed to try a friends with benefits relationship. I guess things are working out so far but it looks like my ex is wanting an exclusive thing and I have to keep reminding her that we are just dating. Although I have to admit if only I could get her to open up more and try new things. But I guess that just comes with time. So, here I am, just trying to live my life without drama or stress and seem to be doing a good job of it. I quit smoking and drinking since I had 3 blackouts since i moved here, use to live in another time and place where I did many stupid, bad things. Basically, I was not sober for about 6 years
including many substances that should have killed me but just made me crazy lol. All well, live and learn and I learned I better clean up and leave before I get myself and others killed. I turned my back on all my so-called friends (gang-bangers actually) and left my home to start fresh in a new town. So did not expect where I ended up at but hey it works. Got a damn good job, easiest I ever had for the amount of money I am getting paid, got actual real friends that dont care about the past or drama and will help u when needed and living on my own for the first time in a very long, bumpy time. So far so good, hope it keeps going for a very long time. I will try to keep everyone updated as time goes by, but unfortantly I am kinda slow at these kind of things hehe, Life included.