knifeboy

holidays over, lets check the list:

-one day spent completely drunk off my ass with my dad and his girlfriend and her family. check

-one day spent with my mom and her side of the family and getting to see how under appreciated she is by those people. check

-several hours fighting with my brother about the stupidest shit. check

-a new batch of presents that must have been purchased for someone else, because anyone who knows me would look at them and say, "what the hell?" check, guess it doesn't matter though cause i will give most of them away to other people anyhow.

yeah, that about completes the chirstmas holiday checklist. good to see quotas being filled right? at least last nights drinking made me feel a little bit better. by the way mixing sprite with Grand Marnier tastes like an orange lifesaver.

bah, i am getting depressed again. and the fact that i know i am getting depressed annoys me to no end and makes me even more fucking depressed. one of my favorite friends may be stuck over in his native land of Turkey because the army demands his service. got into a fight with another good friend over complete bullshit. and started thinking about my ex again. i need a five minutes alone in a sound proof room with a shotgun.

not really.

ok maybe i really meant that but don't pay any attention to it. i am still here right now anyway so i am probably full of shit and just need a hug. people don't give enough hugs anymore and if they do they are the wussy shit pat your back hugs. fucking society.

love all you guys and will write ya when i don't feel like shit for no reason. whenever that is. enjoy your spagetti. . .