klu

i found some stuff i wrote around the time i found out my wife was leaving, wanna hear it,
here it goes:

You were all i wanted
Everyday i was haunted
there was nothing i could do
felt strangled when i talked to you
my mind went numb
never felt so dumb
heart felt pressure that crushed
felt nauseous and turned flushed
felt like a little kid
wanted to run, wanted to hide
petrified to socialize
terrified of what you'd say
so i stayed away.

so there it is, is it lame, good or what?
my ex and i talked again today, i made her cry when i told her i was angry. i told i felt we are throwing in the towel with out really trying to get help. i told her she was worth fighting for. i fear that if i do persist and try to fight through this that she might relapse, i would rather be alone then that, but i dont want to go out without a fight. i will not go into the night silently!!