klu

take this anger
take this sorrow
take this spirit from me
let me rest
let me be still

i apologize for not being what you want
for not being fun, exciting, energetic, photogenic, or whatever
the life is leaking from me
soon i will be a has been
soon no trace of life will be in my face
i will be a walking zombie
living dead
like millions of others
it will be nice to be ordinary
to not be expected to be exciting

either i am wore the hell out or i am getting very old and grumpy, i dont want to be grumpy, but it isnt easy to be anything but.