klair

so, the update i promised.....

my computer is retarded
i wrote a big long update ages ago about how my nan has inoperable kidney cancer there was no hope, and about how incredibly down i was about it all. my bloody computer wiped it instead of posting it & i couldn't be arsed to redo it, i was too busy sulking

*sigh*

since then she's seen a specialist who thinks she's the ideal candidate for a new kind of non-surgical treatment, they just need to find a hospital able to do it, which apparently isn't many. don't really want to get my hopes up, but ...

also, i got offered a house exchange back to telford. i've been wanting to go back home for the last 2 years but had just about given up hope. i've got so used to the idea that i wasn't going to move anytime soon that now i'm not even sure if i want to go back

do i stay here with my mom, who i have spent the last 5 years building a relationship with? but then i won't be able to be near my nan when she gets ill

or

do i move back home to be close to my nan who looked after me all those years? but then when she dies i'm stuck somewhere i have no reason to be?

it's giving me a major headache


i've joined the pen pals group, & already had a few sweet cards/letters, so if you're a mamber too, get writing!!



(btw, my pc is now extra stupid as it has some sort of worm thingy (wtf!?) that i can't remember the name of and some thing cally Spyware Quake keeps re-installing itself even though i've removed it about a million times! i have no idea how to get rid of this so if any of you out there have the slightest clue what i'm on about or how to fix it, i'de really appreciate some help!)