kizmet

IT HURTS JUST AS BAD AS THE LAST TIME
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it hurts....it hurts
i don't understand...
why me?
to be caried so far up
just to be droped.
do i not deserve better
a gentle change and not a slamed door
she no longer fits within his life....no room
she is not worth the risk
just look at her she is a stranger

i am a worthwhile person...

but if no one can see me or even care about me enough to try to be with me
then whats the point

a boy once befriended me held on to me cared for me and then he leaned over and said to me
"amanda i do not love you,
i will never love you,
i could never love you"
i left that moment
i closed my ears

the pain now....it's the same pain....
but so much worse i did not want anything with that boy more than a friend....
but with you i thought for a second that i found a companion...
yet i am not wanted in return...

so all you people out there
broken girl for sale
used goods
she will not argue or put up a fight
she will present a pretty smile and laugh on your command
just come get me
take me away from here
does anyone want me....