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kittykatznme

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Friday Apr 19, 2013

Apr 19, 2013
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ok, my last blog i mentioned that i am having feelings for someone i have been chatting with. We had some issues last week, i tend to want it all and now. we had some stalker issues, but i think we are getting past those. I still feel that i am developing feelings for this person, but meeting her is basically a pipe dream. I keep trying and she gets more elusive.
For those of you who do not know; Jen has an enlarged heart and had a three wire pacemaker implanted in December, but it is not doing what it is supposed to. Add fibromyalgia, brittle diabetes and severe pain in her jaw up to her ear..
I was expecting to be roasted over the coals for asking solutions for not being able to have sex. And looking for an outlet.
At this point, i am not sure if we will ever be able to have sex again, She has been so weak even after the pacemaker, i wonder what is going to happen next.
All I want is for Jen to get better, but I have needs too. I need to find a balance
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dcruz:
Definitely hang in there, life can be tricky like that at times but I'm sure it'll get better!
Apr 20, 2013
kittykatznme:
It has been 5 months since she got the pacemaker with almost no improvement. Her fibromyalgia is causing her a lot of pain, but she can;t take anything for it except Tylenol. Her stomach is a mess, she can't keep food down, and now she is retaining water again. Finally, she went to the emergency room on Sunday because she had a bad headache that caused pain in her left arm. After 2 days at the hospital, she has cataracts, which may be causing the headaches. I feel like all I am doing is watching her slowly die.
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