yes, it's christmas and this is the time of year for family and being with the ones you love....but i feel like something isnt right.
i had a great day with my mom. we went to this place called the black dog pub and got some really good food. Then we bought an ice cream cake only because it looked good and then got food for christmas day (which is gonna be damn good eatin'). It sure was nice to be with my mom all day. She made me feel better.
but yet i still feel like im missing something...
i do know what it is, but he's working all the time now (which is good since he's been out of work for a while) and with his hours, we never talk anymore. you see..we are on a 'break' and have been since the start of the month. This morning I asked him whats going on with 'us' and he had no real answer for me. He said he still likes me, but doesn't want to be with me right now because hes so busy with work. I've been with him for just over 3 years now, and i used to see him or at least talk to him every day. It feels like he's holding on to my heart and squeezing it every now and then, just enough to let it sting.
*sigh*
it really hurts.
i know he's heard the song waiting in vain by bob marley. but since it has significance, the annie lennox version is more suited to my situation
i had a great day with my mom. we went to this place called the black dog pub and got some really good food. Then we bought an ice cream cake only because it looked good and then got food for christmas day (which is gonna be damn good eatin'). It sure was nice to be with my mom all day. She made me feel better.
but yet i still feel like im missing something...
i do know what it is, but he's working all the time now (which is good since he's been out of work for a while) and with his hours, we never talk anymore. you see..we are on a 'break' and have been since the start of the month. This morning I asked him whats going on with 'us' and he had no real answer for me. He said he still likes me, but doesn't want to be with me right now because hes so busy with work. I've been with him for just over 3 years now, and i used to see him or at least talk to him every day. It feels like he's holding on to my heart and squeezing it every now and then, just enough to let it sting.
*sigh*
it really hurts.
i know he's heard the song waiting in vain by bob marley. but since it has significance, the annie lennox version is more suited to my situation
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hayes:
sorry to hear you're feeling icky, I swear if you just give this guy the space he needs he's going to miss the fuck out of you when you havn't called in a couple days. Hope you have a rad new years 
adelheide:
hey, just wanted to give you a big *hug* to help you deal with the boy issues.... i personally hate boys for this exact reason. they seem to be the love em so much you hate em kinda people. anywho, i was in a 3+yr relationship that ended in march (but not really till june) so if you need to talk let me know.