Tuesday Jun 08, 2004

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Well, after a slightly disappointing weekend wityh a potential orgasm friend that turned into us just beingf friends, Icome back, fall ill, have bizarre bruises all over my body and an infgected finger and get told by my doctor 'I think there's something wrong with your blood'

And I had a con in two days that I sduspect I'll not be able to...
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miss_lady:

I hope you are in a better place. frown

voiddragon:

yeah i got weird bloon too. Damn the meterratian anmea!! tongue

Sunday May 16, 2004

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Oh *Goddess*....

*Republican* punk rockers?

That's it. Kill me now. I don't think I want to live on this planet any more.
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freeyourmind:

Im glad your sticking around, i take it that things are better now??? smile smile

freeyourmind:

I hope your having a good bank hol smile smile smile smile smile

Monday May 03, 2004

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So, I've not been updating or commenting on anything on my friendsl ists. This is bad. Unfortunately this may continue for a while as it has to be said I am very very busy, either with work, trying to find work, sorting out housing, or just...trying to find something to do with my life.

See, this is why I stay an outsider. When...
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fortysix_and_two:

*POKES you* I missed ya, so shup, woman!

freeyourmind:

pop in and say hi sometime wink

Wednesday Apr 14, 2004

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Y'know, I suspect I waited too long for the other shoe to drop and dropped it myself.

So tomorrow I work an 8 hour day then go into town to do some unpaid work for my old company because I sort-of owe them and want to keep them sweet.

Man, I'm going to die!!!!

But at least inside she's a Happy Goth smile
fortysix_and_two:

Good luck!

freeyourmind:

hi you, how are u doing, im mike.xx

Saturday Apr 10, 2004

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Oh. My. God.

I went to see Shaun of the Dead today with a friend (guy but also great big geek so that's always fun) expecting to see a very good film.

Instead I saw a *fantastic* film.

I'll put in some spoiler space here for those of you who want to see it without knowing details.

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fortysix_and_two:

I'll be glad to see Shaun of the Dead smile

If you like comics, 'Lucifer's Halo', a Dawn series by Joseph Michael Linsner.

Thursday Apr 08, 2004

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I aent ded

But life is just...well, OK, somewhere between dull and great. It's certainly busy - busy with work mostly, which y'all prolly don't want to hear about, and I don't get stuff to post about.

I am mostly bored right now though. Bored and oh so increadibly lonely. Mostly cos I have realised that you can't try to...
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Wednesday Mar 10, 2004

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I hate having nothing to say.

Actually, I hate routine. Loving having work, hating how hard it is to try and do anything else. But I'm beginning to suspect that's part of my personality;; a general problem I have.

I also think I'm reverting to slightly scary distance bitch. It's a defence I enjoy and need to be careful of because...
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fortysix_and_two:

I've been trying not to turn into a total ass, it's tough.

fortysix_and_two:

Hey *pokes* Still alive?

Sunday Feb 22, 2004

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Well I *was* but now it all feels yuck again.

*sigh*

It's my health. See, I've hjad this right temple/sinus pain for about a month now, on and off but the worst time it lasted a week(!) And then suddenly it went for four whole days and I thought 'oh! Am I better?' But no, tyemporary respite only because it then came...
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scylla:

Yeah, but I'm just referring to guys who're friends of all of the girls -- it's not like they're approaching & trying to chat us up, it's like, "Hey, dude, come over and actively engage in conversation with us!"

fortysix_and_two:

Me. Wish I was close, I'm a good healer/energy battery.

Sunday Feb 15, 2004

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No damning admissions but I *think* I might be showing signs of getting a grip...

More later, when there's breathing space.
fortysix_and_two:

*gets in a security uniform, puts up velvet ropes, and keeps all your problems away for a lil bit*

Wednesday Feb 04, 2004

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My life? Oh it's just *peachy*!

Yes, that was sarcasm.

No, I don't really want to share right now. Maybei n a day or so. But man, the word for the week is 'draining'. And possibly 'oh for *crying outl oud*!' Or maybe even 'OK, even *I* think my family life is weird now'.

Feh.
fortysix_and_two:

*just hugs*

notanemoboy:

Unh... I don't quite know what to say. If you want to talk I'd be more than willing to listen. *pats shoulder*
Welcome to the BCB group. I hope you enjoy it. I just recently posted my personal set, and we have a few others... let naked men ease your stress level.

Saturday Jan 24, 2004

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So, there I was, dealing but angry (er, still am angry but in a more under the surface, reasonably streamlined way), when another discussion ensued last Monday in which I realised somethging else. I have this love/hate relationship with being grotesque. I hate it because I don't *want* to be grotesque and am tired of being *seen* as grotesque (and for those of...
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fortysix_and_two:

Well, hun, I'm not sure what to say about this. Some people can see beyond the physical, and to them I doubt that you appear 'grotesque'. No life is worth living if you cannot be who you want to be, inside. Never let anyone change that more than you want to be changed. And we'll be here to listen whenever you need us. *hug*

scylla:

I understand what you mean about harming yourself before anyone else can... it's a common conception really... but it is also a pitfall and I am glad you're aware of its dangers. smile

Feel bettar!

Saturday Jan 17, 2004

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Well, the last week has been all funky fresh and fun!

[/sarcasm]

Bizarrely, the breakup last week was not he worst event of the week. No, that was reserved for the life changing revelations stemming from a massive argument with my parents.

See, what many online folk don't know unless I state it is that I'm physically disabled. Cerebral palsy, moderate, enough that...
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littledeaddoll:

I hope things get better darling...things usually have to get better after they are bad. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you smile

fortysix_and_two:

There's times that those cracks threaten to suck me in as well. I just keep full speed ahead and my nose up, because failure is not an option for me. *HUGS* Let me know if you need anything.