kisston

Ok, so I guess autumn didn't technically start till today. So, whatever.
I guess that's why today started off terribly. I was in tears and in total disgust with myself. Lucky ducky...y'all don't know why and what for. Cuz you don't know me. (And don't ask. It doesn't concern you.)
So I tried cheering myself up a little bit. I got on a train and headed downtown. I went to a folky/acoustic benefit show at Women & Children First, where I was able to chat a little bit with Nellie Eve, who has gotten my hopes up of a possible reunion with Cathartic Silence. All during the show, my ass hurt from the metal chair. And my eyes could not handle the bright lights. From all the fucken crying I did (still do), my eyse were (still are) hurting; with a headache and stomach pains on the side.
So on the way home I do what I do best; make things worse for myself. I bought a pack of unfiltered cigarettes. I will soon have mouth cancer again. Cuz it's fucken sick to smoke. But this weather and this bad mood of mine. One just needs cigarette after cigarette. At least I have a reason to go outside now and look up at the stars and the goddess moon.