Feeling better, or at the very least more stable. 
I am in this weird state of having huge life altering events happen to me and all around me and I just sort of feel outside myself and I'm just allowing things to happen, which isn't easy because I am normally a complete control freak........ I fell much more relaxed about things because maybe I'm just burned out, or maybe I'm just confident that fate will take care of me. Or maybe it's because it's nearly 4 o'clock in the fucking morning and I can't sleep because it's too quite in my house and I'm just yammering on and on here...... 
I am in this weird state of having huge life altering events happen to me and all around me and I just sort of feel outside myself and I'm just allowing things to happen, which isn't easy because I am normally a complete control freak........ I fell much more relaxed about things because maybe I'm just burned out, or maybe I'm just confident that fate will take care of me. Or maybe it's because it's nearly 4 o'clock in the fucking morning and I can't sleep because it's too quite in my house and I'm just yammering on and on here...... VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
allied:
Do you bartend up in Hartford? I used to go to the Webster Underground once a month for Bound, which was fun. But now I bartend at the American Legion in Norwalk on Saturday nights. 
allied:
Oops! In an earlier reply in my current journal, you mentioned you were going to be working while everyone else was at the bar. Now I know what you meant; I thought you were referring to people at your bar. My bad. 