i know ive been missing. i dont have much to say i suppose.
i got a new job. i start wednesday. i make $14,000 more a year than i do now, and get benefits, paid vacations, dental etc.. so im pretty happy about that. the only thing is i know its going to suck. i like my job now but i cant afford to live off what they pay me. at my current job im in charge of my own things, i have projects to work on. the new job is an assistant to two owners. i feel like ill be an office maid or something. but whatever. i need the money. it will work out.
however for the next two weeks i am going to be so fucked with money. a series of unexpected expenses has happened recently and i have about $20 to last me until monday the 18th or something. after that ill be fine, ill be getting paid a lot more and am bartending two weekends in a row. but right now im not okay. at least there is light at the end of the tunnel, otherwise i would probably have a nervous breakdown or something. all my bills will be paid but i dont have any food for me, any veggies for the bunnies, no soap and need to pay for a train ticket to NJ for my "graduation" party on the 16th. so i dont know what to do. this guy im seeing keeps offering to lend me money but i hate borrowing money. im a big girl, i like to take care of myself. i owe so much money as it is, i cant keep adding to that.
recently i have been bombarded with guys i dated coming back and wanting to talk to me. i feel like i am in the movie high fidelity or something, except all the exs are coming to me. i keep getting e-mails, text messages, IMs, myspace message. wtf? go away. we havent spoken for this long for a reason. im not even nice, i ignore them for the most part and they keep trying to talk to me. one emailed me the yesterday morning and i wrote back pretty much saying "get lost" and he has written me twice since. i think im gonna change my number, email, screen name etc..
i have to go take a shower. its so gross out i dont even want to go outside.
i got a new job. i start wednesday. i make $14,000 more a year than i do now, and get benefits, paid vacations, dental etc.. so im pretty happy about that. the only thing is i know its going to suck. i like my job now but i cant afford to live off what they pay me. at my current job im in charge of my own things, i have projects to work on. the new job is an assistant to two owners. i feel like ill be an office maid or something. but whatever. i need the money. it will work out.
however for the next two weeks i am going to be so fucked with money. a series of unexpected expenses has happened recently and i have about $20 to last me until monday the 18th or something. after that ill be fine, ill be getting paid a lot more and am bartending two weekends in a row. but right now im not okay. at least there is light at the end of the tunnel, otherwise i would probably have a nervous breakdown or something. all my bills will be paid but i dont have any food for me, any veggies for the bunnies, no soap and need to pay for a train ticket to NJ for my "graduation" party on the 16th. so i dont know what to do. this guy im seeing keeps offering to lend me money but i hate borrowing money. im a big girl, i like to take care of myself. i owe so much money as it is, i cant keep adding to that.
recently i have been bombarded with guys i dated coming back and wanting to talk to me. i feel like i am in the movie high fidelity or something, except all the exs are coming to me. i keep getting e-mails, text messages, IMs, myspace message. wtf? go away. we havent spoken for this long for a reason. im not even nice, i ignore them for the most part and they keep trying to talk to me. one emailed me the yesterday morning and i wrote back pretty much saying "get lost" and he has written me twice since. i think im gonna change my number, email, screen name etc..
i have to go take a shower. its so gross out i dont even want to go outside.
I used to be one of those guys that tried to get in touch with my past girlfriends - some kind of issue with closure. But a thick skin NY has made - and I try to work on me everyday. I got tired of it, and in a way I was reminded of why everything ended in the first place. it's not that the time spent wasn't worth it - but the ends certainly did not justify the means - I could have written a song (which I did in some cases) or had gone to the museum. The way I see it now - anyone who wants to talk to me knows where I am - so leave it at that.
In time your Ex's will realize this too, and - if all goes according to plan - they will also leave you alone.
One can hope at least.
Oh and get a juicer! one thing you can do when money gets tight and you have to feed the bunnies - is make tons of carrot juice! You can KIND OF live on it (until your body has a problem with processing the chemical that gives the veggie its orange hue. but that would be a LOT of juice!) but you can also feed the left over pulp to your rabbits - and there will be lots of it. Mmmmm... carrots save the day again!