okay, so how about a real update?
lets see...
i have been pretty miserable lately. its more about career/life/bills. i dont want to get into it, but i just am not where i wanted to be and dont feel like i am getting there or that there is anything i can do about it. its getting to me big time lately. ive been trying to ignore it for a while, but its all hitting me now. just makes me miserable, and i cant pretend like i am not anymore. and the more i hear "whats your problem lately? cheer up, everything will be fine" the more i want to not talk to anyone and be alone. for the past two weeks i have pretty much hid in my room, only seeing the same person a few times.
to move on from that topic - the guy ive been seeing is the only person lately that i can stand to be around. because he knows my deal and doesnt bother me about it. i can be miserable with him and he doesnt ask me about it, or give me lame shitty advice, he tries to make me laugh but theres no pressure to be fake and happy. and i am more happy with him anyway. its a strange situation though, neither of us want a relationship, it wouldnt work with us either. hes too old for me, i like spending time with him and hanging out with him but for a relationship i need someone in my range of 25-29. so for right now we just say it is what it is and enjoy it while its here. also i instilled the policy of "dont ask, dont tell" i dont care what he does when im not around, i just dont want to hear about it. i think we are taking a mini vacation in july to florida. i kept saying i needed a vacation before i went insane, ive been a wreck for 2 weeks. i think it would be a good time, i like the idea of getting away from everything and everyone and just relaxing with someone i like to be around.
besides that everything else is the same old shit. which is why i havnt had anything to update about.
lets see...
i have been pretty miserable lately. its more about career/life/bills. i dont want to get into it, but i just am not where i wanted to be and dont feel like i am getting there or that there is anything i can do about it. its getting to me big time lately. ive been trying to ignore it for a while, but its all hitting me now. just makes me miserable, and i cant pretend like i am not anymore. and the more i hear "whats your problem lately? cheer up, everything will be fine" the more i want to not talk to anyone and be alone. for the past two weeks i have pretty much hid in my room, only seeing the same person a few times.
to move on from that topic - the guy ive been seeing is the only person lately that i can stand to be around. because he knows my deal and doesnt bother me about it. i can be miserable with him and he doesnt ask me about it, or give me lame shitty advice, he tries to make me laugh but theres no pressure to be fake and happy. and i am more happy with him anyway. its a strange situation though, neither of us want a relationship, it wouldnt work with us either. hes too old for me, i like spending time with him and hanging out with him but for a relationship i need someone in my range of 25-29. so for right now we just say it is what it is and enjoy it while its here. also i instilled the policy of "dont ask, dont tell" i dont care what he does when im not around, i just dont want to hear about it. i think we are taking a mini vacation in july to florida. i kept saying i needed a vacation before i went insane, ive been a wreck for 2 weeks. i think it would be a good time, i like the idea of getting away from everything and everyone and just relaxing with someone i like to be around.
besides that everything else is the same old shit. which is why i havnt had anything to update about.
But I miss your little bouncing icon in the corner of my screen all day.