kismi

So, today is my birthday and Im feeling kinda poopy about it. Im not sure why but for some reason, this year more than any other I am really starting to feel like Im getting old. I know, it sounds ridiculous because Im not really old yet but, as my wonderful friend so kindly reminded me, I am no longer in my early 20s anymore. This year (24) marks the beginning of my mid 20s. Gosh, I dont know why this is bothering me so much but it really is! Ive spent the past two days reminiscing about younger days. I remember when I turned 16 and drove away in my own car for the first time. I remember when I turned 18 and stayed out all night without having to worry about getting caught by my mother. I remember when I turned 21 and had my first drink at a bar (I still have the cocktail napkin). That year my family took me to By the Bucket for my birthday dinner. Now, tonight, we are going to the same restaurant and I just cant believe my last visit there was 3 years ago. I think the main reason I am so bummed is because I am really starting to realize how fast the years actually go by. When you are young, you think you will be young forever; you cant imagine a time when you wont be young. Today more than ever I am realizing that I will not be young forever (at least my body wont) and there isnt a damn thing I can do about it. Sooner than later, I will be getting wrinkles. My friend asked me last night what my plan was for the rest of my life and, you know what, I have never been so uncertain or confused about it. Jesusmy coworker just came to say happy birthday to me and now Im crying! I didnt realize it would bother me this much. I cant imagine how I am going to feel next year when I am a quarter century! I know every one of you out there who is older than me is rolling your eyes and thinking Im a retard. I think I will go home tonight, put on my jammies and robe and work on crocheting my hat. Hope all of you are having a fabulous day!!!