I feel like I really need to make a full post and explain why I wasn't active at the time of my set's debut, or even since then. I was completely unaware of all the love it had gotten, as I wasn't receiving any notifications, and am astonished and flattered that so many people enjoyed it! So let me take a moment to explain why I've been a shitty Hopeful.
Shortly after submitting my set, I went through a really nasty breakup, like really nasty. And the piece of work actually hacked my email accounts to get my info for various modelling sites, including SG, to get me slandered and banned. Once I realized this, I had to get in touch with SG moderators and provide an explanation for what happened, and have my photographer back me up so they would allow me access to the site again. I was also in the middle of smoothing out a custody arrangement for my daughter, as her father and I live about 4 hours apart. Then I became pregnant again! I unfortunately suffer from depression and anxiety, and at this point it was a daily struggle to stay positive, to remain focused and happy at work, and to keep making an effort to have my daughter with me. I became ill through my pregnancy, had to reduce my hours at work, and move in with my mom because I couldn't afford rent on what I was making with reduced hours. Eventually I got to have my daughter with me full time again, but then my days were consumed with so many applications for child care, for apartments, for medical, etc. Now my new little one is 3 months old, and I'm starting to get my life back! I'm taking my anxiety medication again, I've caught up on almost all of my bills that accumulated while I was pregnant, and am adjusting to the new life of having two kids, which is a huge change from having only one!
I know it's a poor excuse for not being around, I just hope that the damage my absence has done isn't irreversible, that everyone will understand, and that I can make the effort now to be an active and productive member of the site! I really enjoy being on here, I love seeing all the new hopeful sets, and I hope to chat and create some relationships with everyone.
Thank you to everyone who liked or commented on my set! Thank you to everyone who followed me! I am so so overjoyed that people have enjoyed my pictures, and I really hope that now I can make you all proud to follow me! ❤️
