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This is to you, the one and only. Without you, I will be always lonely.

This is to the one who stole my heart, right from the start.
Like a dart in the midst of the dark, from cupids quiver.
The thought of never seeing you again makes my whole body shiver.
I only need you in my life, you kept me on the right.
If I had you through all this strife, I perhaps could maintain the light,
At the end of this tunnel, my soul being poured through a funnel,
Through these empty words, I concern to never be with you again.
I still and always will have hope to begin again,
I know this doubt will tear me limb from limb,
Even though it may be a sin, I covet you in my mind,
And I know that this rhyme will be forgotten in time,
But I mind the time we spent together,
In the warm summer weather, and not care whether
This would sway your mark on my heart.

Reminiscing about the memories, and
Twisting is my energy without you in my eyes.
When I look into anothers eyes, I only see my
Self staring back and remembering the way I acted
Around you and all the selfish brew I drank
When I was around you.

I didnt see at the time, but to myself I was lying,
I took our time for granted, and you arent someone to get mad at.
I should have done something different
Perhaps been less indifferent
I know that these empty words may discern you,
But know my heart is always with you.

For the longest time, I thought you would come back,
Then began it was something I lacked,
That drove you away, and I wanted to see the way
For myself and you were there helping yourself.
You didnt need me but I needed you,
And that was and still is the truth.
But no matter what I say or do,
Just know I will always be true in my word to you.

Into your eyes I would gaze, and I was too lazy
To see that what I was searching for was before me.
And before you judge me,
On my past or on my history of an ass,
Please just know that my intentions for you will always grow.
So go now and be proud, knowing that I am somewhere out there,
Wanting to scream your name out loud.

I dont want you to think that this burden on my soul,
Will keep me low, I just would like to show,
How things would go with your own dreams in place,
But I know that these dreams are laced with linen and lace
I know there will be no other to take your place
And I am not going to plead a case, to a face that if I saw again,
To cry I might begin, snapping back to reality I cringe.
But again even though sometimes my shoulder was cold,
My heart was on fire and you melted my soul.

You feel like home to me and I can hardly breathe
When I hear you name, and maintain that I am sane
Even though your memories course through my veins,
Everyday I prey for someway to bring you back this way,
But I know today that tomorrow is lost,
And that is left is fates coin to be tossed.

I didnt know what you meant to me,
Whether you were my destiny, or lie next to me.
That wasnt the way it was supposed to be.

Your eyes hue was as strong as the earth,
And though it hurts to say that it will never be the way,
It was before that day, but now its too late.

But always remember to shine, you will never be mine,
I dont deny. Just remember you could warm up December,
And if I ever again get to see your smile radiate,
I hope you allow me to hole you to me without delay.
If only you could see me in a new light, here in the right,
And once again your lip may bite, but I could never match your pace,
So my memory holds your face in its rightful place.

I did want the best for you, but I didnt bother to view the rest of you.
What was on the inside, what never would lie.
You told me in the beginning that you werent the best beginning,
But I wouldnt listen and those comments I dismissed them.
Not thinking that you were warning me to not yearn for you.
Although I say I need you, and needed you doesnt mean that,
I didnt WANT to be with you,
At the same time, but now I will end my rhyme
With hopes that you will find,
Someone that makes you happier in time.



~ T.J. Godwin

This was long overdue, but I hope that this reaches you.