Does anyone else ever feel like they don't deserve happiness? Like you've never done anything worth wile? Or worse yet, done horrible things. Or not even so horrible things but not so nice things. Yes I think you can change. But how many of us really do? I think I do bad things sometimes to feel better. But it is only for a moment. Temporary. And the things that make me feel better are childish or superficial. And at the time I don't feel like they are so horrible comparatively. But I think about what I really want and how I don't have it, and maybe I deserve that. Or, maybe it's just what I want at the moment and one I have that I won't want it either. Ok. Manic vagina rant over. Goodnight.

