I hate how stupid I am sometimes. I know I shouldn't get my hopes up. But I always believe it somehow. Even while I'm telling myself not to. No matter how many times I've been proven wrong. I still let that little voice in the back of my head get a say. The little glimpse of hope that I know won't happen. I hate it. 
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It's a rough ordeal to hold so much hope and have it fail many times, but when it does pay off it is a pretty good deal.
In my experience, I don't hold hope for many things anymore. I tend to prefer thinking the worst of things because if they don't turn out then I already knew and if they turn up awesome then I get completely surprised and feel amazing. The only problem with that is it doesn't feel so great on a daily basis. I would never recommend it. If only I weren't so trained to be this way after so many decades then it might be easy to rehab myself into something more... hopeful. Even holding hope for the little things can feel like a great dose of enjoyment to get me through the day. I wholly recommend hope, even if it's occasionally toward some of the smaller things that might even be per-meditated to work out perfectly for you. So keep your chin up and keep moving forth. There are great things out there for great people and I have no doubt that you are one of those great people!