Nothing like blasting some old school hardcore gangster rap while beating the ever loving hell out of a punching bag using, fists, elbows, knees, feet and even my precious skull to help take my mind off the fact that I am trying to give up marijuana once and for all, which, doesn't mean I'll never smoke again, but it does mean in order to quit being such a god damn pothead I will have to quit for a solid two or three months before I even touch the shit again, and seeing as I've been an almost daily smoker for a good six or so years and haven't taken so much as a month off in that time it is no easy feat. No no no. GOD I'M FIENDING. And it's only been a day. I love mary jane so much. It's so hard to let her go.
I feel I have really stagnated as a human being and have kind of been going in circles lately, with no clear idea what the hell I'm doing with my life, other than getting high all the time and being a
lazy cock. It's imperative that I get my head clear. Imperative! I could just use self control and smoke moderately, but it's always all or nothing for me. If I'm going to smoke I'm going to SMOKE. There's just so many things I want to accomplish and experience in this life, before my flesh decays back into the earth, and I feel like to reach my full potential as a human being, I really need to be sober for a while to figure things out. It's the first step me thinks... But damn it if I don't love smoking. Damn it! Pardon my whining. On the bright side at least it's only weed and I'm not a crack head or junkie. Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to smoke this PCP laced crystal meth.
I feel I have really stagnated as a human being and have kind of been going in circles lately, with no clear idea what the hell I'm doing with my life, other than getting high all the time and being a
lazy cock. It's imperative that I get my head clear. Imperative! I could just use self control and smoke moderately, but it's always all or nothing for me. If I'm going to smoke I'm going to SMOKE. There's just so many things I want to accomplish and experience in this life, before my flesh decays back into the earth, and I feel like to reach my full potential as a human being, I really need to be sober for a while to figure things out. It's the first step me thinks... But damn it if I don't love smoking. Damn it! Pardon my whining. On the bright side at least it's only weed and I'm not a crack head or junkie. Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to smoke this PCP laced crystal meth.