kingofnopants

i've been feeling a little down the last couple days. one of my dogs died on sunday night. i was pretty upset by it. i woke up on sunday night and he was walking about. then i went upstairs to have a shower and when i was done my mom and dad were arguing whether to tell my sister and i about it. apparently he went behind the bar, and laid down on my bean bag chair and then starting shaking and stuff.....then he wasn't breathing. i thought i could tough it out and go to work, try not to think about it....i made my lunch and got dressed and whatnot, then when i got in my car and turned around the corner i just broke into tears. i managed to drive the 25 minutes to work and i was still crying when i got there....so i forced myself to pull it together for 5 minutes to go inside and tell my manager i was going home. then i got in the car and cried all the way back here. when i got home i just sat in my car for a few minutes before i got out. then i went out back of the house where my mom was burning the bean bag chair and preparing to bury toby. i went over and gave her a big hug. and we sat out by the fire for an hour or so. mother burried him in the morning in the backyard. i'm feeling a bit better now, i went to work last night. it's still odd not having him around, my wellington has been a very lonely boy, toby always bossed him around, i don't know what he's gonna do now.

but i'm hungry now, i think i'm gonna grab a bite to eat then head off to bed.