Current Music: Deftones - White Pony
feelings are dumb. i hate them. i've been feeling lonely recently. more so than usual. i'm having an emo moment. there's this girl i've been talking to for like a year now, we've never met, she lives in vancouver. for a while i've been ready to pack my shit and move across the country to be with her and she's been all for it. she just asked that i wait till june when she's all finnished school so that i'm not a big distraction to her. but the other day a good friend of hers admitted his love for her. there were a couple awkward days where she wasn't sure how to react but now they're together and they're happy and i am no longer in the picture. this kind of thing happens to me a lot, like a LOT. i hate it when i have nights off where i just get to sit around alone thinking about shit. they get me all sad and emo and it makes me want to kick my own ass.
i need to get out of where i am. i don't like where i live, i don't like where i work, i don't like the people around me. there isn't really anyone i'm all that close to. i want to get up and leave. i don't care where. just far away from here. away from everything i know. my problem is that to my name i have $382.16......$382.26, i just found a dime on the floor. i still don't think i can get very far with that.
i want to fall in love with a girl and live happily ever after. but girls don't like me. and the odd time when a girl isn't repulsed by me, there's some other obstacle in the way, a significant other, an ocean, etc. i havn't kissed a girl in like 2 years, except for that one time i wish i could forget, biggest mistake of my life.
end emo rant.
feelings are dumb. i hate them. i've been feeling lonely recently. more so than usual. i'm having an emo moment. there's this girl i've been talking to for like a year now, we've never met, she lives in vancouver. for a while i've been ready to pack my shit and move across the country to be with her and she's been all for it. she just asked that i wait till june when she's all finnished school so that i'm not a big distraction to her. but the other day a good friend of hers admitted his love for her. there were a couple awkward days where she wasn't sure how to react but now they're together and they're happy and i am no longer in the picture. this kind of thing happens to me a lot, like a LOT. i hate it when i have nights off where i just get to sit around alone thinking about shit. they get me all sad and emo and it makes me want to kick my own ass.
i need to get out of where i am. i don't like where i live, i don't like where i work, i don't like the people around me. there isn't really anyone i'm all that close to. i want to get up and leave. i don't care where. just far away from here. away from everything i know. my problem is that to my name i have $382.16......$382.26, i just found a dime on the floor. i still don't think i can get very far with that.
i want to fall in love with a girl and live happily ever after. but girls don't like me. and the odd time when a girl isn't repulsed by me, there's some other obstacle in the way, a significant other, an ocean, etc. i havn't kissed a girl in like 2 years, except for that one time i wish i could forget, biggest mistake of my life.
end emo rant.
guess that doesn't help..
*hug*
xo