kingkurt

Well, today is not a good day

I had to have my dog put down yesterday due to Kidney failure and have just buried her in the garden, which was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do

It took me over an hour to eventually put her in the hole and I buried her with all her stuff and a picture of us both

She was 17 last month and lived life to the full right up until the end. I see her born and we had never been apart for more than a few weeks ever since.

I took her for a walk Saturday and by the evening she started getting ill - Sunday night she was gone. She did not suffer

The trouble is when I have lost loved ones in the past I have had an excuse to be angry as well as sad. They died too young, or were in accidents. With my dog, I have no reason to be angry - just really sad. I think anger is alot easier to handle than being so sad it feels like your heart is gonna stop

I feel like I am on autopilot at the moment and still cant really believe she is gone. Everywhere I look I expect her to still be there.

I think I will miss her for the rest of my life.

I wont droan on about this anymore but thought writing it down might help

>K<