Good to be heading back to the top of the world again, even though I know it is a long way to the bottom again.
Feeling great right now, the god complex is almost back, the feelings of invincibility and invisibility are back, and this springtime rush is just adding fuel to the flame right now. I love to win (in case you havent noticed) and I just feel like I have finally won a great and long life battle, and I cant even remember why I was fighting anymore. It just feels as though this suffocating, dark, heavy haze has been lifted, and I almost feel lost. It is so hard to explain, I guess it would be how it feels when someone who has never known peace, finds himself trapped in paradise, he's either going to adapt himself and learn to accept, and enjoy this new life, or he will adapt his surroundings to fit what he knows. I feel like I am that man right now, and I really do not know what to do. Its quite on the home front...too quiet... heh, I am freaking myself out now.
Made a special appearance at Flux late last night without warning or even planning it, I was treated well by the Meridenites. I love those guys/gals. Great people. Not much going on there, made some new friends stayed out later than I should have, got home and could not find it in me to go to sleep, so I didnt. I get Sierra today, and we are going to paint the town red (and put little yellow hammer and sickle stickers all over it too) and see what the rest of the world is into.
Oh, Friday night the Flux crew is gathering to see Van Helsing, either in Meriden or Bridgeport, I will post more details later Open invite; leave the drama home with mama.
Much love to all of ya,
Feeling great right now, the god complex is almost back, the feelings of invincibility and invisibility are back, and this springtime rush is just adding fuel to the flame right now. I love to win (in case you havent noticed) and I just feel like I have finally won a great and long life battle, and I cant even remember why I was fighting anymore. It just feels as though this suffocating, dark, heavy haze has been lifted, and I almost feel lost. It is so hard to explain, I guess it would be how it feels when someone who has never known peace, finds himself trapped in paradise, he's either going to adapt himself and learn to accept, and enjoy this new life, or he will adapt his surroundings to fit what he knows. I feel like I am that man right now, and I really do not know what to do. Its quite on the home front...too quiet... heh, I am freaking myself out now.
Made a special appearance at Flux late last night without warning or even planning it, I was treated well by the Meridenites. I love those guys/gals. Great people. Not much going on there, made some new friends stayed out later than I should have, got home and could not find it in me to go to sleep, so I didnt. I get Sierra today, and we are going to paint the town red (and put little yellow hammer and sickle stickers all over it too) and see what the rest of the world is into.
Oh, Friday night the Flux crew is gathering to see Van Helsing, either in Meriden or Bridgeport, I will post more details later Open invite; leave the drama home with mama.
Much love to all of ya,
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buddha:
I hope you guys are having fun today , and that the man (read:cops) dont disturb your painting and stickering
theretronerd:
hmmm, i was thinkin of stoppin by flux wed but i didnt think anyone was going. i called Welntaod to see if an excursion was planned and the answer was no so i went to rudys. had an OK time. got to chill with oldpunkgirl and amazonred13 so yeah for that! two of the best ladies in CT. just wish we got to talk more, it was too brief glad to hear youre feeling better. i am as well. weakness finally giving way to strength and yes, i can relate to the god complex. i am awesome and invisible and invincible