kimberlytattoo

Hello Loves!!

I am bored sitting at work looking through my many profiles and networking. I decided to write a blog just to pass the time. So I started dating again, Officially single and ready to mingle. But this shit is hard!!

I mean, where the fuck are you supposed to go out and meet people when you dont really like to drink, and people who kick it at bars frequently, unless they work there, arent anything to be looking for anyways. I am at a dead end with this right now because I spend all of my free time doing photo shoots, drawing, networking and hanging out with my dog. Doesnt leave much time to meet people.

I would make time for someone in my life I always do, but it seems like I either tend to fall for guys who want nothing to do with me, who just want to string me along, or just generally treat me like shit anyways. I am attracted to the emotionally distant, and self absorbed. People who do wanna be in my life are too clingy and to emotional in general. I thought I was the girl. I thought I was supposed to be hurt when the guy is too busy to talk. When guys are like that and constantly up my ass or drowning me in affection, I feel like I literally cant breath and I start to freak out. Alternatively I also freak out in a totally different way If I dont hear from my man for a week or two either. I message every few fucking days isnt too much to ask....

I mean I am not the type of girl to wanna be around you and the homies all of the time, or gets jealous of co-workers, and clients. But I am the type to wanna see someone every day even if it is only for a few hours, but as long as there is communication that isnt necessary either. My x told me I was too compromising, which makes absolutely no sense to me.

I am just starting to feel like Im not gonna meet the right guy. I mean I am not shallow but there has to be something about you that catches my eye. Something physical, but you dont have to be perfect. I am loyal till death, and I have been told I am attractive, so I just dont get it.

I dont normally like posting shit like this but I am so sick of being alone, and I feel I needed to express it. Besides a blog is no more then a public journal right?

GOD I even joined P.O.F and match.com.. :p But Dating sites suck as well, though I am about to meet someone from P.O.F. that seems interesting. Knowing my luck he will be some sort of Ax Murderer, or just a complete creep... -.- *sigh*

IDk what else to say. Hopefully I dont have to do Halloween alone again this year... :/

Im done pouting.. Just so sick of being lonely... :/ But here are some photo distractions from my B.s.

Anyone want to steal me from this wretched town and be my night in shining armor?