killthehostage

awww yeah. so ends the horrible week of overtime they force us to work every month.

it's pretty sad, i need to get out of that crap ass job. i should get a job being a vet assistant with my brother. i'm not keen on shaving a dogs naughty bits to prep it for surgery, but it would sure pay a lot more than my crap ass job. ah well... there's still the prospect of brewing.

yes, you heard right. i'm considering going to vermont to learn how to become a brewer. i'm considering opening a brewery. i'm also considering going gay, so we'll see how those all work out. one day i'd like to start my own brew pub and cook as well as serve up semi-frosty mugs of my own home brew.

relax. don't worry. enjoy a homebrew!

other than that, life sucks. me ex who i still love very much doesn't want anything like a relationship. we can have sex every now and again, but it's been a couple years and i'm still hooked. i dunno, there's none of that good stuff that goes along with it, like making out or cozying up together afterwards. i'm not just really into that. meanwhile, a very great girl likes me very much and i feel awful that i can't really reciprocate. i shouldn't be seeing anyone. i should get my life in order, but it's been a bunch of years as it is and i haven't made any progress. oh well, the hell with dames.

i feel fucking repulsive. oh, and like killing myself. that's going to be so sweet.