killingyourheroes

I haven't updated in a while.

November 16th (my birthday) my father passed away from pancreatic cancer. That is why it was the worst day of my life. Right now, life is so hard. It's really hard for me to do anything or get motivated. I feel like I need to give up. Last week I was in the hospital for a few days. I did the things I use to do (cutting...drugs...etc.) and I was on watch. They think I'm going to kill myself. I'm not. I just...don't know what to do. I feel broken and incomplete. My dad was my everything. I was his little girl, and I had a relationship with him my other sisters ..or even my mother didn't have with him.