killingcupid

is anybody home?
flying high
thinking low
thoughts:
lacking content
lacking reason
softly sitting
sinking
drowning.

i think
about
myself
a lot
self-pity
self-loathing
and self-doubt.

so call me self-centered
it can't be worse
than being uninspired

i need a girlfriend, a hobby
a reason to grow as a person
i want to know a new me
or maybe an old me
i'm considering regression

most people say its unhealty
but i think i'm past the best me of my life.
the solution is not always favorable,
sometimes the answer poses another question?

do i think too much about myself?
am i too critical of myself or not critical enough?
i agree with the latter.

so wallow i will continue to do
until this maze gives up on me
~confusing/confused~