Foolish day dreams dance and prance about,
Swirling, mingling, and mucking up the rest of my sensible emotions and thoughts.
Where did I go wrong? Am I moon stricken? Do I set myself up for failure by perhaps setting my standards too high? Should I regress, lower the bar, and accept something less than acceptable, when others seem content with the standard being provided? Settle?
Settle for picking through the lepers and the castaways of society to find companionship? That doesn't sound appealing, or very hopeful. Holding hands, cuddling, kissing- things of the past now. Anything beyond those measures is.... out of the question. But how could I possibly expect to love the next, if I don't truly love myself first?
I can offer verbal love, and good intentions. Cant reproduce, cant kiss- unless I want to afflict others with this both physically painful and incurable disease. It takes a hefty toll on the psyche, so I guess its also a mental illness. :-(
So, just keep pretending that smile you wear is real, and no one will guess anything is wrong. As long as they dont look me in the eye, this facade can continue.
Swirling, mingling, and mucking up the rest of my sensible emotions and thoughts.
Where did I go wrong? Am I moon stricken? Do I set myself up for failure by perhaps setting my standards too high? Should I regress, lower the bar, and accept something less than acceptable, when others seem content with the standard being provided? Settle?
Settle for picking through the lepers and the castaways of society to find companionship? That doesn't sound appealing, or very hopeful. Holding hands, cuddling, kissing- things of the past now. Anything beyond those measures is.... out of the question. But how could I possibly expect to love the next, if I don't truly love myself first?
I can offer verbal love, and good intentions. Cant reproduce, cant kiss- unless I want to afflict others with this both physically painful and incurable disease. It takes a hefty toll on the psyche, so I guess its also a mental illness. :-(
So, just keep pretending that smile you wear is real, and no one will guess anything is wrong. As long as they dont look me in the eye, this facade can continue.