I haven't updated in a while because I've been waiting with baited breath to receive an answer from my father about whether or not he would pay for my piercing course in May.He told me this morning he would but with great comprimise on my part.
I have to let him know on Monday what my decision is.I don't know what to do.I have such conviction that this is what I WANT to do but not enough of a plan to be able to say that this is what I'm going to be able to do.I just have this overwhelming feeling that I have to do this NOW.If I end up staying here for a year,working,maybe taking some global studies courses,then I'll get too comfortable.I really don't want to spend the rest of my life living in Nanaimo and working the counter at Tranceformations.
What are my options?I could stay here and live with either of my parents while working a minimum wage job and try and save up some money to take the course next year.I could take the course in May,move to Calgary this summer and hopefully start an apprenticeship.What if I can't get myself an apprenticeship right away?I'd end up living with my sister and working a minimum wage job.Not much of a difference than staying on the island other than Calgary is usually about 20 degrees colder than here.
I have to just follow my guy instinct,right?I have to embrace what I'm passionate about,right?Right?!
I hate growing up.
I have to let him know on Monday what my decision is.I don't know what to do.I have such conviction that this is what I WANT to do but not enough of a plan to be able to say that this is what I'm going to be able to do.I just have this overwhelming feeling that I have to do this NOW.If I end up staying here for a year,working,maybe taking some global studies courses,then I'll get too comfortable.I really don't want to spend the rest of my life living in Nanaimo and working the counter at Tranceformations.
What are my options?I could stay here and live with either of my parents while working a minimum wage job and try and save up some money to take the course next year.I could take the course in May,move to Calgary this summer and hopefully start an apprenticeship.What if I can't get myself an apprenticeship right away?I'd end up living with my sister and working a minimum wage job.Not much of a difference than staying on the island other than Calgary is usually about 20 degrees colder than here.
I have to just follow my guy instinct,right?I have to embrace what I'm passionate about,right?Right?!
I hate growing up.
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honsolo:
growing up is not all that bad. im having a lot more fun the older i get 
erastella:
All you can really worry about is the now....It's all well and good to have that goal in mind for the future, but we ourselves change and reconstruct so readily that there's no way of knowing who'll you'll even be in the future. Outside forces may pressure you, but don't pressure yourself.