So, I expected 2013 to follow on in the pattern of the previous 3 years I have lived in London. Despite moving and living here and having a few jobs I didn't know anyone and I find it uncomfortable to go out to pubs/clubs etc so I didn't actually make any friends or meet anyone outside of people I worked for, and I didn't talk to them much because they were all too different from me.
Start from the start :) A few years ago my dad was diagnosed with idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis, which is a chronic and ultimately fatal disease characterized by a progressive decline in lung function. He needed to have a double lung transplant to survive this year, and luckily he got one in march. It wasn't an easy operation, he was in a worse condition than was originally thought and what should have been a 5hr operation took 11hrs instead. The complications involved meant that when he came awake from the sedation he was in so much pain he had to be sedated again. He was in effectively a forced coma for 6 weeks, during which he caught flu and herpes in his lungs. Skip to the end, 3 months after the operation he was allowed to come home and with some bumpy starts he's getting slowly better and is able to do almost everything he could do previously.
Next thing, I went to @salliss birthday while my dad was in hospital and met @spike2201 there, got hideously drunk and had some nice chats. Dad was still in hospital and I needed an excuse to get out and forget.
I started going to other gatherings of people after that the next one being for @delmantus birthday. There were a lot of really cool people there, some I had met before and others were new faces for me at least. Although I didn't particularly connect with anyone, I still felt accepted and not judged or pressured :) Also there was a lot of nudity and alcohol which helps most situations. Many loves to all of you, @reuben @skye_ @hodor @swazzy Sal, Brett.
Skipping past a few more drinking things I went out one day in August with Del after I had avoided a few other meetings with people :p and I'm glad I did cause I met an awesome person who seemed different to most people, I couldn't tell you why and I couldn't tell you how I knew ^^
So we had another party where we rented an apartment for the night for mine + @expo birthday. Same people as before + @felis_ @justinwalls & the awesome person I met before :p we're getting there but it needs a section.
Ok so I met @huno in August, she's the different awesome amazing person :) with a small delay since she ran off to Spain to get married and then to Japan it took me from August til the start of December to figure out that I wanted to be friends with her. I am very strict about who I define as a friend, it has to be someone I can trust implicitly and be open and honest with. They also have to stand out from the crowd, being someone who thinks uniquely or just goes through life in a different way than is "normal". I do tell her this fairly often, she's special and amazing and I love her very much. Until I started talking with her and hanging out eating cake I didn't realise how much I had missed human interaction, since I quite enjoy staying in I hadn't thought too much about it, but when I had someone to talk to again I realised how lonely I had been by myself. Thank you for being you Rutxi, te quiero gatita <3<3
So this year I am planning on slowly becoming more social and going out and meeting people I can just sit and talk with. I have Autism & Aspergers, and I get socially anxious, not social anxiety, I am not worried what people think. I do however become hyper alert and pay attention to any movement and sounds around me, this makes going out quite stressful and tiring. Anyway I am going to take baby steps, who knows maybe I will even meet a lovely girl who isn't in a relationship ;)
tl:dr I went out, I made a friend, I want this year to be even better
Happy new year everyone, this one can't be any worse than the last <3<3
