So I have now been told that CBT will not work for me. The issues I have socially are far to complex for me to just "face my fear" and overcome the problems. I am being referred to a Behavioral Psychiatrist who will hopefully be able to think of new ideas and possibly increase the amount of time I can spend with groups of people.
Unfortunately I can never be "cured" of my aversion/anxiety/fear of being around people, I can only modify it so I would be able to cope for longer periods of time. This may be just being able to go out once a month for 6hrs, instead of going out for 2-3hrs twice a year.
I've tried to connect or make new "friends" since my last blog as well, it's only been a week so no progress there :) I just feel like I go through the motions of what is expected of me. I've been told before and I know myself, I am an amazing "people person" if I put the effort in just about anyone would like me because I have learnt all the best ways of socialising and what people want to hear and how to respond.
I only learnt all this to cover up for my inability to understand and interact with people normally, i take the wrong social cues and i don't get the body language and such.
anyway I'll keep this updated a little bit as i progress
