kikou

Hey there,

Not much going on today... I slept for many hours. ...Was having fun with some amphetamines for a 36 hour period and so I had to catch up on the Zzz's and get some food. It was cool though... I wrote a poem, the one I had posted on here in my last entry. I also made a painting. It's abstract and modern. ...Ink splatters, charcoal and ink with tools and ink on hand. It's got a Judeo-Christian theme, which may, or may not be obvious since it's so abstract. I described it in detail in a previous entry, but I guess I'll say it again....

(From entry 9/12/06)
"Last night I experimented with some splashing of ink though. I created a bloody hand smear with blood dripping down from the center. Three blue circles representing the trinity, (God the father, God the son and God the Holy Spirit). Following that was a puddle of blood (color) with nearly translucent blue water in a puddle. (The New Testament says that the praetorian guard stabbed Christ in the side to make sure he was dead; water and blood flowed out. --This was seen as a, "sign." We now know it was caused by pulmonary edema). Amongst the mess of "blood," I charcoaled a broken, thorny crown. I did it all with ink and hand, ink and cotton ball and ink spilling. My hand is stained red now."

The painting/inking is an 18 by 24 on newsprint, however I took a pretty decent digi photo of it, so here it is:



I'm going to give it to Dad for his upcoming birthday. I'm not a Christian, although I was raised that way so that's why I was able to imply all the symbolism and such. Since I'm a total nihil atheist, it would seem odd that I would pick such a theme. It actually came to me because I'm in art history 1B this semester and it is art of the medieval and renaissance. "Madonna And Child," and, "The Crucifix," --and I swear every other fucking painting is named one or the other, have been swimming through my mind lately, especially as I've had to read the text. It's just too bad that I can only do modern and abstract. I can't really draw worth crap.

I guess other than that, I've been working on my MySpace page all day. I swore I'd never use it again after I got a stern letter from the government and was banned at a certain email address. (Because I stated on my page, "If ever I get the chance to commit treason, I'll do so with pride. Fuck Bush. I'll laugh when he dies.) and, well, I guess according to the patriot act it was an act of terrorism. It's not like I got into legal trouble or anything though... Just the letter from a .gov email of an official and getting my page erased. So much for freedom of speech. Yeah, I feel like a sap for going back, but since I'm part of Trashy Kittens now and all the girls have TK MySpace pages, I decided to go ahead. Also, in my section about me, the model, it asks for my MySpace page addy.

I spent several hours creating a style sheet and putting the damned thing together. I added all the other TK girls to my friends list. ...It's really anonymous though because I don't want to get stalked by people who victimize models...... Hrmmm... I put, "Alone I Break," by Korn on my page. I worship Korn. I must say, they are my absolute favorite band ever. I have had my MySpace page up in the background just so I could listen to that song over and over again today.

Well, anyway, for those that want to add me or look at my page, that's cool. However, some of the images aren't coming up because the TK server is having problems. On top of that, the MySpace server has been having problems, so if it won't load, you should just try tomorrow.

http://www.myspace.com/babytrashykitten

Well, all evening I've been chatting with Joe. He's my next door neighbor, well, when I lived with my parents. He is fourteen, so I used to babysit him when I was fourteen. He talks to me a lot online asking for advice, admitting that he's experimenting with drugs and asking me about the war in Iraq. As much as I would like to scold him and instruct him in his behavior, I know that that is the absolute worst thing to do. He shares with me because I don't judge him, and I think that most teenage boys need someone they can be totally honest with, so I just let him be. I advise him though without demanding anything and inform him on things like current events and how to get by in those perilous years of junior highschool. I know the one he doesn't want is to be judged and criticized --I know this because that was how I was when I was fourteen and getting into trouble. If I do so, he will distance himself from me, and he is like my little brother from another mother. I don't want him to get hurt, so I won't do anything to drive him away.

Anywho, I guess that's all for now. I'm tired. I don't have class tomorrow but I still need to get some sleep. I love you all, my friends, my SG friends and my aquaintences. Leave me comments whenever you want or send me messages --I love contact.

Always,

--Kikou