kiki_michelle

my schedule has changed so much in the last 6 months... i'm really missing my sunrises over the lake i think i may head over to the lake saturday morning for the silence of a beautiful sun rise.. i hope it stays sunny.. i don't even care if its -12 degrees..

today is strange.. i'm having rushes of emotions in all different directions... maybe its the herbs.. maybe its this illness.. maybe its the 3 tests i have in less than 6 days.. maybe its the pain over what i know is going to happen this weekend.. gawd, when will this end?

i'm wanting to be done with this fucked up unneeded undeserved undesired ugly emotional stress.. i'm at a loss on what to do... and as much as i try to shove it away as meaningless, it keeps getting violently shoved back into my face.. is it true? will it really end this weekend? i'm doubtful, for being told so.. i wish it was March already.. the month of March .. will the Earth start to thaw out then? will i get to smell the aroma of moist fertalized soil and see the leaves peak their little corners out of those chocolate colored sticks? signs of things to come..

speaking of March.. thurmis's birthday is next friday

... March is coming ... i can do this..





"we ride the waves,
we don't ask where they go...

we swim like lions through the crest
and bathe ourselves on zebra flesh"