Ahh what the fuck nobody probably reads this damn thing anyway..
My wife is "out". It's no secret if you actually read my blog that we're headed towards a divorce, but it hasn't happened yet. So my wife has been taking these opportunities to go "out" at first it was with her brother, his wife, and a bunch of their friends, then it was with a co-worker of hers, some of her family (lesbian sister and her girlfriend) etc. Then about 3 weeks ago she "met up" with an old boss of hers from like 10 years ago. Female boss. So no issue. She'd even tell me who she went with and where they were going. Then the next day after that.. or maybe the day before that.. I don't recall with absolute certainty, but she also went "out". Wouldn't say who she went out with, where they went, nothing. When I asked who and where I got bitched out because I'm asking. One of her big complaints about me is that "I don't care, I don't care about anything". Now of course that's not true. I do care, I care about a lot of things, I just choose not to dwell on them because it does no good. So by dealing with things in my own way, I come off as not caring to her.
So I show some concern, and ask where and who, and I get reamed, only for me to explain that you say I never care, and you bitch me out for that, but when I do care and I ask.. I get bitched out also. *Ahh, gotta love women*
I'm sure I made some comment about her being out and meeting her "boyfriend" (not that I have any hard proof that she has one). Kinda half joking, and she says I don't have any reason to think that, because she's never given me any reason to think she'd cheat.
See, she calls me a man whore. Probably deserved. It's fair to say I was rather promiscuous in my days before we got married. But, I haven't slept with anyone since we got married other than her. I say it that way because she would argue that my flirting (yes I flirt, and probably take it too far, but there's never been anything physical, or emotional, except for The one. You know "THE ONE", the one person from way back in the day who can still make you get all twitterpated...), would be just as bad as cheating.
So anyhow back on track... She went out with her old boss again last night, just dinner after work.. wasn't home till after 9pm.. no biggie but how long does dinner really take, it was only the Cheesecake Factory, and she brought a change of clothes... odd... but whatever.
So tonight she's going "out" again. I chose not to ask the who and where's so I didn't get bitched at, and because I went "out" last weekend, with a female friend... for sushi and a movie.. nothing else, she's married after all, and she didn't ask me the who and wheres. So I figure I have to play nice. But, going back to the original going out.. she never did say who or where. Which leads me to think there's now another guy involved.
Now I'm sure I'm blowing it out of proportion, but if there wasn't why wouldn't she just tell me. And why will she tell me when she's just going out with her friends, such as her old boss? Odd. Very odd. I've come to accept that we will be getting a divorce, I really have. And I'm not so sure WHY this whole who and where thing bothers me, except that if she is sleeping with another guy at least be up front about it. I mean I'd love to go get some strange too, but I'm not going to be the first one to cross that final line of taboo.
No I don't think if there is some other guy that he's to blame for our marriage falling apart, I believe her when she says I don't make her happy anymore, it hurts, but if it's true, it's true right?
My wife is "out". It's no secret if you actually read my blog that we're headed towards a divorce, but it hasn't happened yet. So my wife has been taking these opportunities to go "out" at first it was with her brother, his wife, and a bunch of their friends, then it was with a co-worker of hers, some of her family (lesbian sister and her girlfriend) etc. Then about 3 weeks ago she "met up" with an old boss of hers from like 10 years ago. Female boss. So no issue. She'd even tell me who she went with and where they were going. Then the next day after that.. or maybe the day before that.. I don't recall with absolute certainty, but she also went "out". Wouldn't say who she went out with, where they went, nothing. When I asked who and where I got bitched out because I'm asking. One of her big complaints about me is that "I don't care, I don't care about anything". Now of course that's not true. I do care, I care about a lot of things, I just choose not to dwell on them because it does no good. So by dealing with things in my own way, I come off as not caring to her.
So I show some concern, and ask where and who, and I get reamed, only for me to explain that you say I never care, and you bitch me out for that, but when I do care and I ask.. I get bitched out also. *Ahh, gotta love women*
I'm sure I made some comment about her being out and meeting her "boyfriend" (not that I have any hard proof that she has one). Kinda half joking, and she says I don't have any reason to think that, because she's never given me any reason to think she'd cheat.
See, she calls me a man whore. Probably deserved. It's fair to say I was rather promiscuous in my days before we got married. But, I haven't slept with anyone since we got married other than her. I say it that way because she would argue that my flirting (yes I flirt, and probably take it too far, but there's never been anything physical, or emotional, except for The one. You know "THE ONE", the one person from way back in the day who can still make you get all twitterpated...), would be just as bad as cheating.
So anyhow back on track... She went out with her old boss again last night, just dinner after work.. wasn't home till after 9pm.. no biggie but how long does dinner really take, it was only the Cheesecake Factory, and she brought a change of clothes... odd... but whatever.
So tonight she's going "out" again. I chose not to ask the who and where's so I didn't get bitched at, and because I went "out" last weekend, with a female friend... for sushi and a movie.. nothing else, she's married after all, and she didn't ask me the who and wheres. So I figure I have to play nice. But, going back to the original going out.. she never did say who or where. Which leads me to think there's now another guy involved.
Now I'm sure I'm blowing it out of proportion, but if there wasn't why wouldn't she just tell me. And why will she tell me when she's just going out with her friends, such as her old boss? Odd. Very odd. I've come to accept that we will be getting a divorce, I really have. And I'm not so sure WHY this whole who and where thing bothers me, except that if she is sleeping with another guy at least be up front about it. I mean I'd love to go get some strange too, but I'm not going to be the first one to cross that final line of taboo.
No I don't think if there is some other guy that he's to blame for our marriage falling apart, I believe her when she says I don't make her happy anymore, it hurts, but if it's true, it's true right?