grandma had a heart attack last nite. Moma had to take her to hospital. She's having surgry as I write this. Moma's taking it hard. It's so hard to be far from home sometimes. My brothers got this attitude problem. For years actaully....and we don't know why. Sucks when you can't even relay on family for support ...exspecially during these times. Still pondering reason why he acts so disapointed in me moma and grandma. I just want to be home again....not physically....But mentally. gets so lonely sometimes. There was a time we all were a family...what happened??
I have such grave luck.
I want some steady contentness for a while....
Nerves always resemble this --->
Aww...Blue (my kitty) seems to understand...he gives me specail attention and concern. They can sence things, ya know.....
I have such grave luck.

I want some steady contentness for a while....
Nerves always resemble this --->

Aww...Blue (my kitty) seems to understand...he gives me specail attention and concern. They can sence things, ya know.....
I am doing well. I feel like I am on the right path with my life, and that is something! I am interviewing at an awesome shop in MA on Monday afternoon, and hopefully I will get a full time/perm position. And if so, then I move. I am excited about that, but sad too. I think it is best for me, and therefore will help Deke and I because I will be in a better spot in my life, even though I won't be here anymore. Basically, all I am sure of now is that life is strange, but I am following my heart. It surprises me how following my heart can hurt, too.