Since when did crying become my pass time. I'm a retard. I don't know if it's this weather that's making me feel worse or what, but I know I'm tired of feeling this way. I need some herbal uppers or Zoloft or something. It's soo stupid. I complaining about being so alone but at the same time noone would what to be around someone like me .... a downer. It a traped feeling .... a downward spiral. I just need to snap out of it. But I can't find the door. blah blah blah. I'm tired. of me. and so is everyone else.
What a stupid entry. I was trying to make myself feel better. Writing things down help me put things in prospective. hmmm...it's just making me feel stupid. I just want someone's company.
Reason I don't know anyone....incase you wonder...is I'm not from here....(hate people who have the think I'm different b/c I talk southern or what ever) I moved up here knowing no one but my boyfriend and I go a job at an demanding office where everyong I work wiith is my moms age. I don't go to bars by myself and My boyfriend is consumed and blessed with his friends.
I'm pathetic. Pls excuse me. I'm a retard. I'm stir crazy. I miss my old friends. They all have baby's now. All have moved on. I just want to crawl in a hole. I'm missing my purpose. I've looked Everywhere.
My favorate phase I used like 50 times a day anymore:
"Fuck that shit"
Is that classy or what?
GoD I've got to get a life....
And I don't want to see any comments that say "well, hope you feel better" or "Sorry you feel that way" ..... I want to hear " Hears a bottle of 151 for ya" and shit...
No simpathy pls. !
<---- loook I just grined... (sigh)
SEE .... YOUR APPROVED LEP......!
What a stupid entry. I was trying to make myself feel better. Writing things down help me put things in prospective. hmmm...it's just making me feel stupid. I just want someone's company.
Reason I don't know anyone....incase you wonder...is I'm not from here....(hate people who have the think I'm different b/c I talk southern or what ever) I moved up here knowing no one but my boyfriend and I go a job at an demanding office where everyong I work wiith is my moms age. I don't go to bars by myself and My boyfriend is consumed and blessed with his friends.
I'm pathetic. Pls excuse me. I'm a retard. I'm stir crazy. I miss my old friends. They all have baby's now. All have moved on. I just want to crawl in a hole. I'm missing my purpose. I've looked Everywhere.
My favorate phase I used like 50 times a day anymore:
"Fuck that shit"
Is that classy or what?
GoD I've got to get a life....
And I don't want to see any comments that say "well, hope you feel better" or "Sorry you feel that way" ..... I want to hear " Hears a bottle of 151 for ya" and shit...
No simpathy pls. !
<---- loook I just grined... (sigh)
SEE .... YOUR APPROVED LEP......!
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I wish I could've told you I was going to change my look before I went. I was the tall pale white boy with the beard and mohawk wearing the strange red/white/blue buttondown shirt with the red tie. I looked around for you. But didn't spot you in the crowd.
The guys I went with and I would've each bought you a big drink and got you laughing.