khru

sorry to hear about the stress with your ex.
it was very complicated with my ex, i always thought everything was perfect and we'd stay together for good. all of a sudden she broke up, given me little to no explanation. it was quite devastating and it's still getting to me because every now and then, something new comes up.
it just brakes my heart to know that she is right, we would have destroyed each other if we'd still be together.
i want her to be happy with her new guy, but it makes me feel like shit to know that i couldn't make her happy and even worse, that i was the reason for her problems.
but well, can't do nothing about the past anyways...

my crush is going to visit me in a couple of months if i'm lucky!!

glad to know you're feeling a bit better now. i'm in serious need for sleep lately.

i'll be seeing a very good local hardcore band this friday, should be good.

exactly, i always blamed myself for everything that went wrong. after a while i thought that it wasn't all my fault but now i know, that it was mostly my fault after all. her only mistake was not to tell me what was wrong with me and i didn't even realise it myself. at least i didn't do it on purpose but i guess that makes it only worse somehow.

my crush helped my a lot and i'm so glad to have met her.

not sure if i could find valerian around here. i have no problems sleeping, i just stay up way too late all the time and have to get up early, which leads to a lot of coffee...
but that valerian stuff sounds very good!!