I'm tired...
I'm tired of being the "Freind"...
I'm tired of being the "Buddy"...
I'm tired of being the "Shoulder-To-Cry-On"...
I'm sick-and-fucking-damn-tired of being the "Nice Guy"!
I'd rather be a Bastard and be wanted...
I'd rather be an Asshole and be loved for it...
I'd rather be a Son-of-a-Bitch and have a Girlfreind...
Instead of being "The Pal", and having no-one!!!
I'm not looking to sleep around...
I'm not looking for conquest...
I'm not looking for a bunch of one-night-stands...
I'm just looking for...My "One".
Ok. So!
That makes me a "Sap"...
That makes me a "Loser"...
That makes me a "Pansy"...
Well pardon the Fuck outta me!!!
I've heard it before...
You really do want someone nice...
You really do want someone sensitive...
You really do want someone who respects you...
Bullshit!
BULLSHIT!!
BULLSHIT!!!
I'm tired...
I'm tired of being...
...alone...
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I've read my comments on this entry, and I feel I have to say something about it.
I'm not trying to gain any sympathy or attention, really. I merely was trying to relieve some frustration, over my personal problems, through prose...or my version of it.
So, please, no need for advise on it. I know what my problem is, and am trying to work on it.
Don't worry, this is not an angry response. I'm just uncomfortable with too much attention.
If you read the above entry, just try and take it for what it is...art...sort of.
This is not a cry for help, Ok.
Thank you for your concern though, Eliska & Dylan!!
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
A: was a push over
B: had shitty job/ no ambition/ a child
C: smelt weird
D: under confident
E: dressed under par for what I wanted
G: I didnt want to be seen with him in that way cause other people didnt like him.
H: used poor gramar
it has nothing to do with being an asshole.
It makes me sad when I hear nice guys saying they should be an asshole instead cause thats what the girls go for.
anyway... I came over to your journal to say thanks for the tea recipe
And yeah it sucks always being the 'friend' as you put it, but one day you'll find the right person. So many girls want the bad guy, and it doesn't take long before they get sick of being fucked over and they start looking for someone who they can actually care about.