khoos

Have you ever had a gall bladder attack?
It's horrible.
Laying on the floor of the bathroom in absolute agony. It occurred to me that for me, these attacks only came during times of stress. It was like my body's way of saying "Ok, enough of this shit, time to stop and pay attention to yourself."
And while I am SO glad I won't have to deal with another attack like that, I'm also a little sad that my body's way of making me stop and pay attention is gone.
It was also very reassuring to me when the surgeon told me that my gall bladder was Very Sick. Part of me worried that because of the relationship between stress and gall bladder attacks that it was my brain faking it. Not that I would ever consciously choose to experience an attack, but that my brain would trigger it.

Another thing that occurred to me while laying on my bathroom floor: We need a bigger bathroom.