Uh huhn.
So my girlfriend seems to be having off and on issues with her happiness. :-/
No good, eh? Her family has been driving her insane, along with her best friend going batshit insane and turning into the complete opposite of what she used to be and neglecting her old friendships...
It's unnerving to be called someone's pillar of support... cuz fuck if I'm not too much of a flake to be reliable...
I don't trust myself with any responsibility that isn't directly my own... and even then it's only because I have to. I do care for her a lot, possibly even love her truly, but it frightens me to think of what would happen should some freak act of nature cause us to be at eachother's throats or break up overnight.
Catch mah drift, home slice?
In unrelated news, I think I'm going to kick my little brother in the teeth.
He reaps all the benefits of my harassing my parents (nearly 19 and still living at home cuz I'm a lazy slackbitch.)
I mean really... when I was 14 there wouldn't have been a chance in hell that I would be allowed to have a computer with internet access, a 27" tv, a VCR, a Playstation 2,and a fucking partridge in a pear tree in my room. Hell, I was only allowed to have a net-access computer in my room now! Bargh.
Nor would I have been allowed to get my eyebrow pierced, had I wanted to, at his age.. and he's being all bitchy about them not letting him get ANOTHER eyebrow piercing... Gragh. I got my tongue pierced when I was almost 18, and even then it took some convincing...
I guess that's the downside to being the elder... having to realize that your little shithead sibling gets all the benefits of your molding and desensitization of the parental units....
On another unrelated tangent, I'm worried that I'm gonna lose my job... I've been kinda slacking off and they just hired another part time CAD guy who doesn't goof off nearly as much as I do.... but it's not my fault! They don't give me any work to do, so what the fuck am I supposed to do? Just go through and start making up work to do? I need markups and floor plans to draw and edit... oh well. I've always got a backup working at my dad's office if this one falls through... even though it would mean taking a pay cut, less flexibility, and working with my dad. *Pretentious condescending prick sometimes*
Hum dee dum, I think I'm done with that rant...
So my girlfriend seems to be having off and on issues with her happiness. :-/
No good, eh? Her family has been driving her insane, along with her best friend going batshit insane and turning into the complete opposite of what she used to be and neglecting her old friendships...
It's unnerving to be called someone's pillar of support... cuz fuck if I'm not too much of a flake to be reliable...
I don't trust myself with any responsibility that isn't directly my own... and even then it's only because I have to. I do care for her a lot, possibly even love her truly, but it frightens me to think of what would happen should some freak act of nature cause us to be at eachother's throats or break up overnight.
Catch mah drift, home slice?
In unrelated news, I think I'm going to kick my little brother in the teeth.
He reaps all the benefits of my harassing my parents (nearly 19 and still living at home cuz I'm a lazy slackbitch.)
I mean really... when I was 14 there wouldn't have been a chance in hell that I would be allowed to have a computer with internet access, a 27" tv, a VCR, a Playstation 2,and a fucking partridge in a pear tree in my room. Hell, I was only allowed to have a net-access computer in my room now! Bargh.
Nor would I have been allowed to get my eyebrow pierced, had I wanted to, at his age.. and he's being all bitchy about them not letting him get ANOTHER eyebrow piercing... Gragh. I got my tongue pierced when I was almost 18, and even then it took some convincing...
I guess that's the downside to being the elder... having to realize that your little shithead sibling gets all the benefits of your molding and desensitization of the parental units....
On another unrelated tangent, I'm worried that I'm gonna lose my job... I've been kinda slacking off and they just hired another part time CAD guy who doesn't goof off nearly as much as I do.... but it's not my fault! They don't give me any work to do, so what the fuck am I supposed to do? Just go through and start making up work to do? I need markups and floor plans to draw and edit... oh well. I've always got a backup working at my dad's office if this one falls through... even though it would mean taking a pay cut, less flexibility, and working with my dad. *Pretentious condescending prick sometimes*
Hum dee dum, I think I'm done with that rant...
sabine:
hrm..ive been having those off and on issues too