Making a ton of changes in my life now that I decided to start living again.
It's amazing sometimes looking back how far things can get outta hand little by little if you let them. People always wonder how others live in bad situations. It's because they aren't as bad as they get immediately, they fall apart slowly... I kept thinking if I tried a little harder, gave a little more... gave up a little more, that things would get better... That better never came, but the important part was finally realizing it never would.
If you are somewhere you can't even be yourself... Somewhere you've lost the joy of life and hope... If you are somewhere you know in your heart you don't belong...
Stop and leave. Right now if you can. Stop cutting away pieces of you til there's nothing left. You have no idea how much I wish I could've written these words to myself years ago, or maybe you do. If so, please take em to heart. As far as we know for sure you get ONE life... live it with people that love and cherish you... the you that you are, not that another would have you be. Live it with people that enrich your life, and hopefully you do the same. Just live and love, start with yourself... others will surely follow.
It's important to know also that sometimes even two GOOD people don't belong together and can make each other miserable.