kerouaclullaby

I've learned this weekend that there's no clearer way for a guy to tell you that he's not interested and not even remotely thinking about you, than for him to just not call. simple, clear, effective. it's true, i haven't called him either, but why should i be the one to go out on the limb? he's the one that has walked away before without so much as a goodbye, much less an explanation. but i pushed the red flag aside, because we all deserve second chances occasionally.

thanks for the 4 weeks and countless drinks. it was a lot of fun, but i get it...you're just not that in to me. which is okay, because to be completely honest, i never felt good about myself while i was around you. i always had to be the most perfect version of myself as possible, stunningly intelligent and slightly witty. sexy but modest. young but not immature. after the amount of dates we've been on, one should at least have a clue if the other person is really that interested or not. i sorta got the feeling that you were just biding your time till someone better comes along, or that i was just filling the spot of someone else. thanks for keeping me warm at night, you're a great sleeping buddy. you're smart and sexy and creative, but for some reason the balance just isn't right.

it's not easy, but i think i'm finally getting a hang of this disappointment thing.