thanks for all the sweetness and support. i still don't quite get that she's gone. the funeral last night helped. you haven't lived until you've been to a tibetan buddhist funeral. the hedonism, the pomp, the promises. gongs were struck with vengeance, food and drink were imbibed, tears were shed, poems were read, spirit was released, bright colors and offerings and a little hint of... Read More
editing this dude's erotica manuscript. it's about a middle aged man and a 15 year old girl. the editing part is quite an excavation. the writer makes her talk like an 8 year old ("you mean it comes in parts?" she'll say, referring to male genitalia). i don't even think he's being extra pervy. he just doesn't remember what it feels like to be a... Read More
i've just been asked to be a sort of spokesperson/case-study for the clinic in vermont that has helped me so (w/ a chronic illness).
this means that i get lots of free testing, which would otherwise be out-of-pocket or simply out of my reach. it also means that i get to meet and consult with the famous swiss Dr. Thomas Rau, the founder of... Read More
boring? not at all, it's wonderful news & I'm excited to hear it! As for the tattoo, just sit there concentrating on how much it itches and how wonderful it would feel to scratch it. Thanks for the birthday wishes
where does the daddy's girl thing come from? i've got it bad, had it forever. is it as obvious as i'm trying to make up for lost time with my real daddy? wtf, y'all.
with the daddy thing I guess it'll be a "Now, tell me about your childhood...." kind of conversation, which is sort of weighty and not to be talked about lightly...
I imagine there could be lots of possible explanations.
If I could work out the parent / child thingy, then I'd be a well adjusted person
you did indeed do it again. speaking of bodies (regarding your previous journal entry), i've concluded that those things are altogether high maintenance and awfully demanding.
how the fuck did _crash_ win for best picture at the oscars? these are things i think about when i can't sleep.
finally saw _brokeback mountain_ last night. i have no comment on how great or not it was, objectively speaking, but it totally hit me on some personal level. i was sobbing the entire time. something about... Read More
I haven't seen Crash but everyone whose film taste I respect has characterized it as rather mediocre. I did see Brokeback and liked it a lot--on a personal level, as you say--but as to whether it's "objectively good", there's really no such thing. Film taste is entirely subjective (as much as I hate to admit as a film buff and projectionist...). And apparently the Academy's taste leaned towards Crash, probably not because of the qualities of the film itself (or the actual filmmaking or story), but because it deals with race relations in America and they deem that to a more important issue to deal with in film than the legitimacy of love between two men.
my boy wrote me the most ridiculous, over-the-top head-inflating, somewhat tongue-in-cheek, quasi slam-poetry birthday card ever, which ended up totally being my favorite gift. it's crammed full of in-jokes, but that's what 12 years (mostly) together will do. i share because i'm an exhibitionist. i stay loyal to his shit because of this.
uni. tard. BRING IT!