TOTAL DOWNER
they're taking my dear friend Tessa off of life support tonight.
the liver transplant took, but the rest of her organs failed, and her body just isn't habitable anymore.
she is only 53, and she is so fucking cool. i'm so pissed for her - she so fiercely did not want to die.
and i'm sad for myself - she was my one rock, the one person who seemed to get what it was like to be me (and, to some degree, i think/hope, the feeling was mutual), who i didn't have to "crank up" my personality around. i didn't feel i owed her a damn thing. i didn't feel a need me to impress her or to look cute for her.
i feel totally helpless. this whole fucking situation can blow me. it's so hard to let her go. to not know at exactly what time they're pulling the plug. for all i know, it's right this second. family only allowed.
earlier, i was talking with jason in this fiendish, hysterical way about how we should pull up in front of her house with a U-Haul, explaining to her relatives that "we want something to remember her by," as we proceed to load up on all her furniture for our new apartment, then peel away before they can protest. while this may seem irreverent and /or disrespectful, Tessa was/is a devil like me, and she would have appreciated it.
i love this lady, and i'm sending her lots of calm strength so that she can go gracefully, away from the unworthy place her body's become.
i will miss her rockin british accent, and how she appreciated my homemade fruitcake like no one else. (and no, the fruitcake was not what killed her, ha ha so not funny, thanks.)
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"28 Mar 2006 - Tessa Pybus
This evening at 8:35pm EST, Tessa Pybus, sister to Lady Diana Mukpo, the wife of the Druk Sakyong, the Venerable Trungpa Rinpoche, succumbed to complications from a liver transplant at Lahey Clinic in Boston.
Lady Diana Mukpo was reading the Tibetan Book of the Dead to Tessa at the time of her death. The Sakyong has been in close touch with the family and is performing practices for Tessa at Marpa House in Boulder this evening.
Tessa's body will be taken to the Boston Shambhala Center where practice will be ongoing for the next three days. On Friday evening a Sukhavati ceremony, open to the community, will be performed for her there.
The Mukpo family appreciates the kind support they have received from the sangha during this time.
(This announcement was from the Shambhala News Service)"
they're taking my dear friend Tessa off of life support tonight.
the liver transplant took, but the rest of her organs failed, and her body just isn't habitable anymore.
she is only 53, and she is so fucking cool. i'm so pissed for her - she so fiercely did not want to die.
and i'm sad for myself - she was my one rock, the one person who seemed to get what it was like to be me (and, to some degree, i think/hope, the feeling was mutual), who i didn't have to "crank up" my personality around. i didn't feel i owed her a damn thing. i didn't feel a need me to impress her or to look cute for her.
i feel totally helpless. this whole fucking situation can blow me. it's so hard to let her go. to not know at exactly what time they're pulling the plug. for all i know, it's right this second. family only allowed.
earlier, i was talking with jason in this fiendish, hysterical way about how we should pull up in front of her house with a U-Haul, explaining to her relatives that "we want something to remember her by," as we proceed to load up on all her furniture for our new apartment, then peel away before they can protest. while this may seem irreverent and /or disrespectful, Tessa was/is a devil like me, and she would have appreciated it.
i love this lady, and i'm sending her lots of calm strength so that she can go gracefully, away from the unworthy place her body's become.
i will miss her rockin british accent, and how she appreciated my homemade fruitcake like no one else. (and no, the fruitcake was not what killed her, ha ha so not funny, thanks.)
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"28 Mar 2006 - Tessa Pybus
This evening at 8:35pm EST, Tessa Pybus, sister to Lady Diana Mukpo, the wife of the Druk Sakyong, the Venerable Trungpa Rinpoche, succumbed to complications from a liver transplant at Lahey Clinic in Boston.
Lady Diana Mukpo was reading the Tibetan Book of the Dead to Tessa at the time of her death. The Sakyong has been in close touch with the family and is performing practices for Tessa at Marpa House in Boulder this evening.
Tessa's body will be taken to the Boston Shambhala Center where practice will be ongoing for the next three days. On Friday evening a Sukhavati ceremony, open to the community, will be performed for her there.
The Mukpo family appreciates the kind support they have received from the sangha during this time.
(This announcement was from the Shambhala News Service)"
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I thought maybe this guy should pay you another visit.